i have so much to blog!!!
there is so much going thru my mind.. in a confused state..
everything went so blur and i dunno what to do.. what is it best for me..
i know ppl will be saying how stupid i am..

but the problem is that i tot friends for so many years n to finally find out how you treat your friends make me so disappointed in you.

yes, i know i will stay quiet but that doesnt mean that i wont be angry in whatever you've done.  that is what everybody will do..
from young, my mum dun like siblings to quarrel and i would avoid to quarrel with anybody at all cost ( not include relationship thou ) between frens/family/colleagues ...
as i grow older, i tend to tolerate bits by bits when im upset by things ppl do to me..

now, when everything surface up, i feel totally taken advantage of..

but... ... i still wouldnt say "no"...  tis is my lesson learnt and im being hurt deeply by friendship.
since it's gonna be ur big day, i dun wish to make it something bad when u look back.
i really want to make it enjoyable, but somehow, my mood & heart isnt there anymore..
i become so afraid that the weekends are coming and i have to face it once & for all.....
nevertheless, i will really keep trying. i hope.. *prays*

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last of all..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CARDIKY*new nickname from dee

photos of his birthday will be upload soon..

cheers..

his chalet was fun thou he was already half drunk when his relatives left and haven even play much yet..

mostly was BBQ-ing after that.. * miss the spicy drumlets..

be happy*be contented

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stay happy___

things to take note for happiness to find you ::::

* do not take things for granted

** be appreciative to everyone

*** do not make comparison, it will make things competitive & u will nv be happy

**** treasure everyone around you

Lastly,

BE CONTENTED no matter what you have.