i had an awesome night ytd with a simple meet-up of ktv !!
this had been drag here n there, until we finally meet up ytd ...
althou it was super weird at first when the stupid A haven come#($*)#%&$(%..
me n E was talking non stop n left out WS.. so sorry bout it .. hahas..

well, we are gals, what do u expect..?? & we haven meet up for soo long and there are alot of stuffs to be clarified..
at least i get to hear both stories & i of cos know who to trust now.
i'm totally dumb i think..
to think that we cant judge a book by it's cover , is totally true..
anw, is glad that we can clear off some misunderstandings.. =D

that is a totally good thing to know..
& u happy now, so who cares !!!

hmm... ...

what can i say...
ppl changes every time.
whether good or worst , u , urself made all that happen ...
it doesnt matter how ppl thinks if what u do is right, but there's no need to go all over explaining urself.
this is how things work.
if i have done nothing wrong, why is there a need to explain urself right?
and if u doesnt explain, misunderstanding builds..
actions DOES speak louder than words..
all past is past..
dun wish to care either since it is like super long ago....
.

dreams scattered.
future is unclear
nothing is clear to me right now..
i dunno how to start, no idea when to stop..
i wish i can study, but with my current job, is a NO for me.
but this job keeps me so busy that i have no idea the time passes so quickly..
in that way, i will not think too much, that is a good thing to me..
but for my future, i am unsure,unclear and super blur.. i cant see well..

who can tell me how should i go.

pple..
i am warning you if you ever going to bkk again , near the 4 face buddha.. there's this short short guy who claim that he is a lawyer and will be asking ppl to go to somewhere to pray.. he often give u excuses like it is the buddha bday or wad celebration which only happen once a month and u are so lucky that u are here this day blah blah~~~
he will even call a tuk-tuk over and ask them to fetch u there..
after that, the tuk-tuk will bring u over to jewellery shop/diamond shop to "take a look"..
there is no harm done lah, but it is just irritating to find ppl like tt..
wasting our time to do what u wants us to do.. as if we have money to buy that kind of stuffs also..
well, i met this guy once and he keep insisting us to get on to the tuk-tuk..
when we refused saying i want to go shopping, he still can give me a stupid excuse saying there's a sale after 4pm and i can go the that place and head to shopping in time.. -_-
full of shit i muz say..
anyway.. when i came back and meet up with belle.. i told her bout this incident and she happen to meet the same guy also.. but she kanna con over there..
her friends also kanna twice and they even take the photo of this guy..
haha.. i didnt have the photo, just beware of these stuffs happening in bangkok..


ok.. more bangkok photos are up on fb ..
so here are a few..  ... ...

super big de room... Zzz

day 1 - lootss

day 2 - loots

day 3 - last min shopping..

=D

steamy-inng.. will never forget the meatball plus their chilli..

YUMS.. is MK restaurant..

this outlet is at MBK...

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we had fruits buffet too..

super sweet de mangosteens..

im back from bkk..
super tired cause i cant take leave so i went right back to work after my holiday!!
despite that, i still need to work overtime & i am super de busy one..
why so many ppl remit money la..
cannot use bank transfer meh.. -.-


shall blog about my trip again..
=DD
buy alot of BAGS, Dresses && slippers.... ....


tml will be going to pick up C!!!!
WELCOME BACK TO SG !!!
i know u will miss ur new friends !! but we miss you too !!!



TO A ::  u want weekend or weekday?? weekdays i very hard to know the timing i finish work leh..

super tired..
new work is progressing and there is still many to learn
totally shag but i m totally looking forward to my bkk trip !! in less than 1 day ...
after tml.. i will be sitting on a plane again.. this is totally a super short getaway cos i didnt even take leave on monday when i reach sg ard 12am..


=))


To A::


tat is becos my mum is not around !!
lols.. ok la.. of cos can.. but i finish work at 730pm sometimes may have OT.. if want muz faster before i learn all the stuffs and they dun let me off early lo..

hmm, read something sad about..
ABORTION .. it is nothing big about but there are friends around who do that..
i cant judge them but this is sad ::


Hi, Mommy. I'm your baby. You don't know me yet, I'm only a few weeks old. You're going to find out about me soon, though, I promise. Let me tell you some things about me. My name is John, and I've got beautiful brown eyes and black hair. Well, I don't have it yet, but I will when I'm born. I'm going to be your only child, and you'll call me your one and only. I'm going to grow up without a daddy mostly, but we have each other. We'll help each other, and love each other. I want to be a doctor when I grow up.







You found out about me today, Mommy! You were so excited, you couldn't wait to tell everyone. All you could do all day was smile, and life was perfect. You have a beautiful smile, Mommy. It will be the first face I will see in my life, and it will be the best thing I see in my life. I know it already.






Today was the day you told Daddy. You were so excited to tell him about me! ...He wasn't happy, Mommy. He kind of got angry. I don't think that you noticed, but he did. He started to talk about something called wedlock, and money, and bills, and stuff I don't think I understand yet. You were still happy, though, so it was okay. Then he did something scary, Mommy. He hit you. I could feel you fall backward, and your hands flying up to protect me. I was okay... but I was very sad for you. You were crying then, Mommy. That's a sound I don't like. It doesn't make me feel good. It made me cry, too. He said sorry after, and he hugged you again. You forgave him, Mommy, but I'm not sure if I do. It wasn't right. You say he loves you... why would he hurt you? I don't like it, Mommy.






Finally, you can see me! Your stomach is a little bit bigger, and you're so proud of me! You went out with your mommy to buy new clothes, and you were so so so happy. You sing to me, too. You have the most beautiful voice in the whole wide world. When you sing is when I'm happiest. And you talk to me, and I feel safe. So safe. You just wait and see, Mommy. When I am born I will be perfect just for you. I will make you proud, and I will love you with all of my heart.






I can move my hands and feet now, Mommy. I do it because you put your hands on your belly to feel me, and I giggle. You giggle, too. I love you, Mommy.






Daddy came to see you today, Mommy. I got really scared. He was acting funny and he wasn't talking right. He said he didn't want you. I don't know why, but that's what he said. And he hit you again. I got angry, Mommy. When I grow up I promise I won't let you get hurt! I promise to protect you. Daddy is bad. I don't care if you think that he is a good person, I think he's bad. But he hit you, and he said he didn't want us. He doesn't like me. Why doesn't he like me, Mommy?






You didn't talk to me tonight, Mommy. Is everything okay?






It's been three days since you saw Daddy. You haven't talked to me or touched me or anything since that. Don't you still love me, Mommy? I still love you. I think you feel sad. The only time I feel you is when you sleep. You sleep funny, kind of curled up on your side. And you hug me with your arms, and I feel safe and warm again. Why don't you do that when you're awake, any more?






I'm 21 weeks old today, Mommy. Aren't you proud of me? We're going somewhere today, and it's somewhere new. I'm excited. It looks like a hospital, too. I want to be a doctor when I grow up, Mommy. Did I tell you that? I hope you're as excited as I am. I can't wait.






...Mommy, I'm getting scared. Your heart is still beating, but I don't know what you are thinking. The doctor is talking to you. I think something's going to happen soon. I'm really, really, really scared, Mommy. Please tell me you love me. Then I will feel safe again. I love you!






Mommy, what are they doing to me!? It hurts! Please make them stop! It feels bad! Please, Mommy, please please help me! Make them stop!






Don't worry Mommy, I'm safe. I'm in heaven with the angels now. They told me what you did, and they said it's called an abortion.






Why, Mommy? Why did you do it? Don't you love me any more? Why did you get rid of me? I'm really, really, really sorry if I did something wrong, Mommy. I love you, Mommy! I love you with all of my heart. Why don't you love me? What did I do to deserve what they did to me? I want to live, Mommy! Please! It really, really hurts to see you not care about me, and not talk to me. Didn't I love you enough? Please say you'll keep me, Mommy! I want to live smile and watch the clouds and see your face and grow up and be a doctor. I don't want to be here, I want you to love me again! I'm really really really sorry if I did something wrong. I love you!










I love you, Mommy.






Every abortion is just…






One more heart that was stopped.


Two more eyes that will never see.


Two more hands that will never touch.


Two more legs that will never run.


One more mouth that will never speak.

my first day of work spells BORING ~
practically is being chuck in a corner cos my "mentor" is on MC..
and i haven got my access card/ user id & blah blah blah...
seems that my manager is always not around..heard that he is an old ah pek aka uncle type la..

on my third day, he actually came over and ask me how m i and i was abit stunned.. becos i cant rmb who he was and when i finally realised who he is, he already went to talk to others... -.-
*bad impression*

well, my others "younger" colleagues doesnt seem very friendly cos they normally hang out among themselves.. and my mentor is an auntie so the aunties do talk to me.. =)
well, i cant judge much of them cos i'm still very new.
im glad that one of the officer actually say i did well but he say he will be giving me more work when i come back on tue.. -.-
is that a good thing?
oh well, better than nothing..

work seems to get better..
other things seems to be getting worse..
cant explained in such a way that ppl can understand... just hope everything goes well..





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saturday night out !!
went bedok 85 for dinner & durians...
had a super headache already by then..

watched "street dance" afterwards and it is awesome except for the last part which ended like "huh?"
well, the dance steps is really cool.. just the british-english speaking part is not what i normally hear..
it makes my understanding abit kinda blur..
overall is nice too.. * will have the urge to go clubbing ~

in the middle of the night, i got up and start having like diarrhea ! FML...
i was like totally drop dead in the toilet but my stomach is soo damn pain..
i guess it might be the durians i ate by the roadside near bedok 85 hawker centre..
well, it is the first time i ate durian by the roadside wad..
anw, i cant slp after that.. woke up around 9.30 am in time to watch doraemon .. =P



TO A::
in what way i talked like a housewife sia..
anw, i got the urge to sing again.. but then, i think my work mostly end at 7.30 or later -_-
so sad...

2nd day of orientation, also mark the last day of orientation !!
have a fun but super tiring day !!!
what we have to do?
i got a group of 14 .. and uob got these like 4 cores values?


"UOB Group lies our four core values: Integrity, Teamwork, Trust and Respect, and Performance Excellence."



so wad we need to do is to go different branches, find out how is their services & how is it linked to the 4Cs ...
so yep, we went to raffles main branch after that to tiong bahru & then back to bugis ..
our class is located at SMU so we have our last stop at bugis..
well, there is some qns to be ans along the way.. i even msg nise
 to help me find an ans at her branch.. *we didnt want to travel there becos there is a time limit of 4 hours..
need to have lunch and prepare the presentation as well within this time frame..
is super shag de lor...

anyway, we didnt get the first prize also.. the reward is starbucks voucher.. dunno how much..
sighs~ but everybody did hav another consolation prize of a $10 value ezlink card imprinted with our uob 4Cs !! that is abit unglam but is still money & it is also to cover our transportation fees as well.

so that is about all !
tml is going to start going to tamp le !! yay..  \(^_^)/


TO A ::
u shld be so grateful i came la.. after tt go home wash clothes is like damn tired lo. ~~~
anw.. nise is at the 6th floor leh. dunno can meet dao her anot.. hopefully bah ....

first day of the orientation !!
it is super lame kind? like those poly schools get-together session..
firstly we got the colourful "name-tags" and the we grp according to the same colours and then introduce ourselves to the grp members.. after that u need to introduce to the whole class. *why cant they do it tgt??

well, i really hate these kind of stuffs..
the grp work & the super bored-to-tears presentation.. i nearly fell asleep then..
didnt meet alot of nice ppl, cos their position are so much higher than me..
some senior officers, AM, managers or even a VP !! wth..
im only a small clerk la..somemore is contract basis..
diaos.. so i dun want to mingle with them.. their topic is like so alien to me.??
dunno bout wad sibeh chim banking matters.. privillage or sumthing?? cant get thru.. so i chose to be alone..

worst of all, i wore my new heels & makes me like fck !!
totally feel like shit the whole day...
not enough? they still send me a super talkative aunty on my way back home, she keep talking n talking bout the rude HR and dunno who else..
even worst is that she is staying at tamp & same branch/lvl as me... sighs ~


hopefully tml will be a better day ~

=D