she still upset about it.
i dunno how to console her, but i wish her all the best and energy.

anw, im busy recently.
no time to do anythin. i always think that sep is a super busy month for me althou it's my birthday .
there's my sis one, and few more others.
and this year, esp, we're all turning 21st, which makes a big issue already..

aw, i need some rest.
later still got a stupid townhall meeting !!

" belle n yaya, dun worry about me, i'm fine and just want to be alone. "

this is what she said. althou i didnt reply her, i still hope she will be well and take very good care of herself..
i miss you.

no reply her yet. no news from her yet.
i know i muz be patience, she will get over it ..

anyway! i finally got a new phone (W995) and is in RED in colour.
loves it alot. and i really want to protect it..
but dun like the pouch i chose, it seems much smaller than the phone, cant have full coverage.
thinking of getting the gmask or the invisible shield. i think both are quite exp.

tml is monday le, hopefully can get the new tt we can go visit her.
*prays**

gotten a reply from her hubby and her sis.
she feel better but still complain a little dizzy.. but she still isnt ready to see us yet.
i have taken another monday off, in hope that i can visit her next monday.. *pray hard*

even thou i wont knw what to say to her. but i need to see her..
=/

you are a strong girl all along.. i know you will be able to get over it de.. JIA YOU ..

today is the second day that the worst new came..
i still feel so helpless, the only thing i can do now, is that i manage to control my tears when i'm going to visit her tml or tue. i dun really wish her to come back to work so fast, deep down, i wish she could just find another job.

but im still puzzle how this happen. it was so sudden.. she was just fine on fri. like normal eating alot, smiling like a glowing mummy-to-be.
sat morning, when i reach office, didnt see her* i sense something wrong. cos she normally reach very early..
and then my boss break this news to me. i drop on my chair, sobbing hard.
i cant belive it, really cant.
called belle to tell her..
belle called her husband to confirm. and it's true. (i wish they just play a joke on me)
it happen in the middle of the night when she have contractions and when she was sent to the hospital,
the "yang shui" have broke which it cant be happening cos is not yet due birth.
baby's eyes have yet developed.
she just miscarriage like..

^i rmb i was the first to knw in the office, when she came telling me this. i was so overjoyed.
bought lots of food for her, her craving, her big increase of appetite... ...
and the time she told me she knw the gender alrdy, is a "PRINCE"..
the time we deciding what to name him, how he kick his mommy, and once, he kick me n belle...
we took photos during this period, i wanted to make a journal for him, see how his mommy look...
ALL this cant be done anymore...

oh GOD, how could u take him away, he was so active.

the reasons?? none i could think of..
by guessing.. ppl say we cant buy any stuffs for the first baby, if not bad things will come. m i to believe it ??
then i will blame myself for buying things for him. blame myself for not taking good care of her.
her father said tat stress can lead it too..
then i will blame myself for not able to share the workload for her.
what shall i blame ..?

im totally down inside. but i promise to stay strong becos of her.
cos she's like my sister in the office. a very good one.

the most depressing day

THE MOST DEPRESSING DAY since then..
i just got a new that my very good colleague of mine had lost her baby.. is only 23 weeks old.
and all we tot that it was stable and awaiting for the arrival, who wants this to happen.

i cried all afternoon after hearing this new from my boss.
i too, have spend months with him, talking to him, asking him to stop kicking his mummy.. buying chocolates n tibits for him.. and now, this have to happen out of the sudden.

nothing was wrong when she went to check-up, nothing wrong just hours before i went back from work.
and it just happen. she didnt fall, didnt bump into something.
in the middle of the night ... ... and it happen.

xiao wang zhi** i will miss you.
i really hope ur mummy will be fine and get over you asap.=(

think watching cartoon is a waste of money??
WATCH "UP" .. a comedy cartoon by walt disney.. interesting storyline, exciting stuffs and touching scenes..


Movie Plot::

A 78-year-old man named Carl Fredricksen spent his entire life dreaming of exploring the globe and experiencing life to its fullest. Due to his age, he thinks life has passed him by. One day, an 8-year old wilderness explorer named Russell, changes his outlook on life and the pair goes on adventures, encountering wild terrains, unexpected villains and jungle creatures.


first time i can cry while watching cartoon -_-!!
been scared by the cartoon..

iLOvethe GRANDPA >.<

hangover is damn hilarious lahs, but i think they cut alot of stuff to make it a N-16 movie.
the movie is totally off, something couldnt and unlikely to happen in real life..
straight after the movie, i told him that he CANNOT have a bachelor night .. it's DANGEROUS if the show come alive and happen to hiM!!

*one of them gotten marry without him knowing(lucky not the bridegroom himself)..
*a tiger in the hotel bathroom ???

Went ION after that, bought myself a banana-choco MOCHI.. it's like $10 *after discount* for a 12 pcs MOCHIs.. =(

im going orchard ION later.. yeah.. so excited, but i bet there'll be super lotsa ppl there.. =(
althou i dun like crowded places, but belle told me there's this japanese supermarket that sell alot of japanese stuffs. esp their mochi-s, i love it !!

going to watch "hangover" too. =P
hope that it's worth it !!

Fighting is a real bore !! i regreted man.
i wan to watch "hangover" but he suggested to watch during weekday -.-
see, told u liao.. take my idea ler..

movies upcoming (muz watch):
-hangover
-UP (3D)
- the proposal (20aug)


got time then watch movies :
-murderer
-the orphan