it is going to be the end of 2010 ...
in the coming of 2011, my life still hasnt get any better..

i m nothing..

my job is tiring me out, making my life so general... there's nothing special about my life and i cant do anything about it... -.-

i am so emo now ...

BUT...
there is always happy memories that have been created ..

the lovely day i spend with bf on his birthday and the time with my friends.. =)

the MBS trip .... i would really love it if their service wasnt so bad.. but anyway, cant complain...

the swimming pool is really nice.. plus the view... is epic =)

the steamboat w my fav meatballs & ktv after that .. much loves ...

still have ..

wonderful bday celebration w bf...

i think i will upload the photos later on tgt with otherss..

im tired already..

 

i wanna change my blogskin and everything..
cos i realise i am not 21 anymore.. although in my heart, i will always be that 21...
well, truth really hurts right.. i m just being honest in my blog.. T_T

and YES, i am still busy..
hm.. dec schedule is roughly out now..
3rd - most probably will b singing K with C and others.
4th - helping my sis to move house

SUNDAYS are meant for recharging ..

WEEKDAYS are meant are earning money = working

10th - shld be K again with C (if she is FREE) & A
11th - company event * max sian.. i wish i wont have to attend but sadly, i am one of the organiser (that explain why i am soo busy as well)

17th - NOT AVAILABLE as it is bf birthday !!!! (super looking for it)
18th - attending wedding (again!!)

24th - THAT IS XMAS EVE already !!!!!!!!
25th - XMAS TIME ... i hope i have no programs cos i hate the crowds.. but, we'll see.


that pratically sums up all.. so i am really BUSY ...

recently activities ...
including slacking & prata w A n WS... it been so long since we are back at the prata shop again.
the drinks we drank is the same just that i ordered Chix Mutubak...

continueing with Jo bday celebrate after that in one day advance...@ big eater..

my fav cereals prawnsss !!!

it is just a short dinner cos i am not available to celebrate w her on her actual bday..

next event explains why .....

JP MORGAN PROUDLY PRESENTS ... ....

*faints*

the unexpected is that my seats is quite in front.. 4th rows from the front.. Zzz

wanted to celebrate with my bro after this but is cancelled , so me n bf went home to rest..

because i have chest pain for that whole day..

-.-

my my, i am so damn busy...
neglected alot of stuffs including my frens and blog and my precious games on my iphone...

well, start of nov..
few birthdays, weddings to attend.. is super shag and somehow drain most of my energy ..

but all of these are precious memories to me.
=)

clubbing with bf for the first time .. SHIOK **
not that high becos the music is weird ... =/

my great grandma pass away that week as well, i am unable to attend due to the wedding i am attending
unable to send her thru her last journey is a disappointment, but i am glad that i went to visit her during CNY this year.

next, it will be the super shag wedding that burns my SAT & SUN .... ....


it bf bro 's wedding.
sat to fetch the bride.. sun is their wedding lunch..

well, really angry when the "sisters" keep saying that the "brothers" are useless/old/ blah blah.. which is kinda of rude and very unfriendly of them to use these terms.. there's one brother in his forties and saying these kinda of stuffs is very sensitive and shameful..
of cos, i dun like ppl saying my bf is useless either.. so i dislike them right away .. humph..
the bride house is damn far from tamp and the trip to n fro is another tiring one.
after that ceremony, bf still have to send them home to pack their stuffs to the hotel TWICE and we ended up home just nice MIDNIGHT..
slept for a few hours and wake up early to go to the hotel and prepare..
SUPER SHAG..
lunch ended around 3 plus and we reach home ard 5 , enough for a short nap .. =)


coming this week ::
Wedding (AGAIN)
Birthdays (AGAIN)


updating soooon..

aww.. today went to sis's new home !!
it suddenly feels soo good to have a home of ur own . and i am so looking forward to our home..
slowly working toward that goal, and prays that our next ballot will be successful =D
i cant wait to decorate my house n spend the lovely time together at home .. hmm, seems nice..

sum up this week events, it just buying of presents and going to celebrate with them ..
my friends are all growing up and sad to sad, my bro is turning 21 this coming 17th!! god, time really passes so fast.. well, i hope everything is going well for him ..
it feels that time is nv enough and it keep going on so fast that i haven have the time to stop and see what is going on with my life..
there's so much going on and i kept wondering why i didnt think of my future..

now that i am so lost , i dunno what to do..
ARGHHHS ..
i always wanting to avoid this topic and now i am lost.
but i still dun want to touch on that until i found some way..

soo byee !!

oh, so many things happen this week ? so many kinds of bad news and the one that i have been most KPO about , of cos was the one that happen at DTE..
well, it kinda sad to hav one person died in that incident and afterall, the paying price was kinda high and really pity their family when they have brought up their sons for so many years and getting this end result.

anw..
enough of the news stuffs, i am having super busy weekends for this month..
i dun even know when is my free period.. and money is running out but with all these weddings coming on..
i'm soooooo dead !!!

HELPP ME

the super small size tv which "auto-off" in the middle of the night..

CREEPYYYY~ it is the night that we watch "child's eye" ... AND our window opened themselves..

anw. i am too tired to even wake up in the middle of the night when these happen so we just take it that

the wind is too STRONG (we stayed on the 4th floor), and the TV hav some sort of timer.. -.-

i love my mum !

okay, here is my winning !! minus off the MYR100 that i forked out, i won MYR260..

but i ended up losing MYR100 again tt night so total i won MYR160..

BUT.... i bought my parents and myself each a pendant which cost MYR30 each..

sooo, it doesnt look like i am winning..

& my dad lose it after 1 week .. =(

didnt tried this thou but it look super fun.. COOKING MAMA on a machine..

there is only 500 units but the number we took is 900 , so what is that mere little chance here?
a hoping of 600 ppls to opt out , is there that possibility?

more and more disappointments,  i dunno what to look forward to anymore..
what is that govt doing ... ... building us more flats that we are unable to afford and unable to even have a chance to choose..

singapore is now flooding with the so-called "foreign talents" and now, there isnt even a place for us to stay in
-.-

i wanted to update my genting trip. but so many things happen that doesnt feel good.
anw, it wasnt that bad if the check in having me to wait like 3hrs plus and the pizza hut service and also the creepy stuffs i feel in the hotel..

mayb i will update when i feel more happier ..

A: be strong, i'm so sorry to heard that.. take cares.

prays

I pray , i wish, i want my grandfather to be well.. Recover and stay alive , pls..

leaving for genting in one more day !!
so excited.. it been so long since i go holiday with my parents.. althou my sis n bro are not going..
i'm going to go casino for the first time and i wish i have some first-timer's luck !!

anw, it glad that mom is able to go with us..
=)

love mum

She have gone thru alot and i dun understand why muz one force her to this extent , cant her family treat her tt well that u muz put a stop to it? Does that she could nv enjoy her life lile she used to be. How long can this happiness last when u were to take it away from her. Yes, she may be smiling but i know she is super upset. Her case hav bring her much difficulties in her life and who in one life wish this to happen. It is all bout protecting one another. She bear it in her name, that is brave of her. Wont u do the same too? Now why cant u jus let her off for a few days jus to make her happy. What is wrong when i am the one paying for the trip. I earn my money and giv my money to let her enjoy life, is that so wrong as a daughter that u muz reject ! And what with all those commercials bout impt of family !! Back to a softer side, i wish u will grant us that one permission . *prays*

the quarrels we had, the love we got .

dear love,
thanks for visiting me once again.
i have felt for it and cherish u once again.
i will be good and i will care, i will make him smile again.
i will let him know that you have visited him as well.

now love, please help me send ur love to those in need, let them feel you once again.
let them have a smile on their face and stay with them whenever they need.
let your love be their strength to carry what they have to bear.
please make them strong to continue their life filled with the love u gave and the happiness in it..

to all my friends:
i wish that LOVE is there for you.

C - pray that ur grandma will be fine, hope that you are coping well with ur studies and everything is well.
A - hope that u will find that "one" and be blessed ~
E - stay happy, u have grown up and u know what u are doing, may everything be well for you.

why does the guys dun always admit their mistakes?
why does the guys always think that the prob is small and we are making a big fuss out if it?
why does the guys always have the right to chose not to care and dun even feel anything at all?
why does the guys dun even want to say "sorry" to make things better?

why is it so hard to open ur mouth and apologise what u have said and bear the responsibilities?
why ? why ? why?

money!!

Money is the killer of everything. It kills family ties, friendship and anything nice.. This is not uncommon among us. Actually, it is right in front of us where there is no denial not hidden but unable to control.. I saw it in everything but there is no stop for it.. I m helpless when it comes to this. What can i do? Nothing. Except to listen n see .. Such a disappointment ! To u n you ! Friends is just for saying and is not even true at all. Not fit to called as a friend.. And u, stop dragging ur family with u. With no repents, u can jolly well b left alone..

If u have the ever gulity-mind, i think i would nv detest u as much as that..
If u would really stand in ones' shoes and think hard about what u are doing whether it is right or wrong,
i guess i wont dislike u that much.
If u have the cheek to even ask one that u let down to come back to your side, i guess i would hate u that much.
If you think that i am at fault, or done something that shouldnt be doing, u being my friend, is welcome to have a nice talk with me.. I can at least know what i have done instead of keeping it quiet..
that is what friends are for instead of letting others talking bout me..

what is the point to the friendship with betrayal, mistrust and ungrateful ... there is no need for a friend like that. there is no place in my life for a person like that.


this is getting more and more disppointing each single day, each single moment..
memories were there but u were not here anymore.



the end.

such a disappointing weekend i have..
fri - no ktv cos i am still sick
sat - not going to colleague hse for hari raya cos i am sick, not going for family dinner cos of F1...
sun - wanted to go Ikea for meatball PLUS fries but i dun think i can recover by then...

SAD SAD SAD ......
it all ruin by sore throat started on tue, headache started on wed, cough & fever started on thur... it nv get any better !!
& i totally know the reason why i got that fever ..
i was drenched in the sudden rain that thus lunch break... T_T
colleagues alrdy know i shld be getting MC but keep asking me to come back work cos there are 3 ppl on leave.. im so sorry...

anw, i sleep throughout my fri ... dinner is only french toast becos i cant ever think of what to eat or what i can eat... even mac doesnt attract me anymore..



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well, i really wanted to post some photos up cos my blog look so dull.

now that i got the time.. here goes :::

meet up with my girlss.. they are the best even thou we didnt meet up often..

they dote me like little sister.. =)

these are continued from the USS.. photos are from ver's camera

nice mash potato but it cost $6+ for this small portion...

super damn big the NACHOS.. but i find it so-so only cos i dun like the cheese to be harden tt kind..

i like those which we can dip into.. but this is not.. & it cost $18+

BLIC cafe.. we just decided to go eat after dinner at 802.. yummy yummy ice cream but didnt have my fav that time thou.. & YW just happen to bring camera so we SNAP , SNAP, SNAP...

realise i didnt have make up on that day .. T_T

Special Post FOR BDAY!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CALENE !!!!!

wish U ,  many many luck & studies UP UP UP !!!
u got lotsa good frens around u & i wish all the friendship will stay long & true for yoU!
<3 <3 <3


all my surrounding frens are turning 22 !! althou the number is not that big but still, it makes an impact on me..
i dun want the time to go that fast, i want it to be slow so that i can slowly see things at my own pace..
many things around me , i seen and felt..
nothing have ever made me that disappointed before..
this yr have been bad, terrible on certain things but i have gain alot as well.
i see frens as who they are, what they are..
i appreciate that..
well, what i hope for was things to be better.. in the future... ...


first MC on the new job.. i hope it doesnt affect my performance..
i really bo bian have to take MC cos i dun feel that well and i cant concentrate on my work.
so , really sorry for the colleagues that will be fighting on behalf of me..

Happy Birthday TO MR NEW...

great catching up with u too !!
so much happen and so much of different life.. i still prefer working life with the income i needed..
hahahaha.. anyway, u just have to study hard !!
hope ur frens will not blow up those unglam things.. =P

may everything goes well with you !!
best wishes


=D

all about C

that u larh .. CALENE!!!
i realise i totally forget u still can update ur blog and i finally went in to see..
lols..

ok, bout the des part, he like nv ask me to tell him when u are coming back leh.. *thinking*
he only ask me to call him when we are going out ma... Zzz
but ok la, i will ask him out when u are free for meetup ok.
or mayb can just go ur hse downstair for a dinner or what so i can apologise to him ..

=DD

anw, u have great friends la, but still need to manage ur time lo.. dun always msn till late night !..
muahaha.. that is unhealthy ... !

i am asking for something that simple.
but chances are not given to me..




i feel so terrible.
i feel so confused.
there is isnt one day i feel good.
everytime i looked at the photos, it is such a regret...
how things become this way, is not what i wanted.
it is just beyond my control anymore.
i just hope time will settle everything down.







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it is such a busy month for me.
there is just so many sep babies..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO::
my sister , ME, alan, shixiang , denise, calene , wan ting........
did i miss out anyone? hope not.
well... i hope u guys can be happy always .... n successful in whatever u do...



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surprises surprises !!
i love surprisess....
firstly, just 1 week before my birthday .... ....

he called my mom, asking her to wait for at home so he came n put in on my bed..

after that, he waited till he can send me home from work .. *cheeky*

=D

second early bday.. 04.09.10

small mini celebration organised by verlyn...

another surprise ...

it was supposed to be a SIMPLE LUNCH/DINNER..

but end up i have to stand up on a chair and everyone in the restaurant is singing for me..

totally embarrassed to the MAX...

i was shaking when i come down.... >_<

love the frame & my toner...!! thank you guys... =DDDDD

meeting ger & jo on my actual bday ..

=))))))

my life is wonderfull....

i had an awesome night ytd with a simple meet-up of ktv !!
this had been drag here n there, until we finally meet up ytd ...
althou it was super weird at first when the stupid A haven come#($*)#%&$(%..
me n E was talking non stop n left out WS.. so sorry bout it .. hahas..

well, we are gals, what do u expect..?? & we haven meet up for soo long and there are alot of stuffs to be clarified..
at least i get to hear both stories & i of cos know who to trust now.
i'm totally dumb i think..
to think that we cant judge a book by it's cover , is totally true..
anw, is glad that we can clear off some misunderstandings.. =D

that is a totally good thing to know..
& u happy now, so who cares !!!

hmm... ...

what can i say...
ppl changes every time.
whether good or worst , u , urself made all that happen ...
it doesnt matter how ppl thinks if what u do is right, but there's no need to go all over explaining urself.
this is how things work.
if i have done nothing wrong, why is there a need to explain urself right?
and if u doesnt explain, misunderstanding builds..
actions DOES speak louder than words..
all past is past..
dun wish to care either since it is like super long ago....
.

dreams scattered.
future is unclear
nothing is clear to me right now..
i dunno how to start, no idea when to stop..
i wish i can study, but with my current job, is a NO for me.
but this job keeps me so busy that i have no idea the time passes so quickly..
in that way, i will not think too much, that is a good thing to me..
but for my future, i am unsure,unclear and super blur.. i cant see well..

who can tell me how should i go.

pple..
i am warning you if you ever going to bkk again , near the 4 face buddha.. there's this short short guy who claim that he is a lawyer and will be asking ppl to go to somewhere to pray.. he often give u excuses like it is the buddha bday or wad celebration which only happen once a month and u are so lucky that u are here this day blah blah~~~
he will even call a tuk-tuk over and ask them to fetch u there..
after that, the tuk-tuk will bring u over to jewellery shop/diamond shop to "take a look"..
there is no harm done lah, but it is just irritating to find ppl like tt..
wasting our time to do what u wants us to do.. as if we have money to buy that kind of stuffs also..
well, i met this guy once and he keep insisting us to get on to the tuk-tuk..
when we refused saying i want to go shopping, he still can give me a stupid excuse saying there's a sale after 4pm and i can go the that place and head to shopping in time.. -_-
full of shit i muz say..
anyway.. when i came back and meet up with belle.. i told her bout this incident and she happen to meet the same guy also.. but she kanna con over there..
her friends also kanna twice and they even take the photo of this guy..
haha.. i didnt have the photo, just beware of these stuffs happening in bangkok..


ok.. more bangkok photos are up on fb ..
so here are a few..  ... ...

super big de room... Zzz

day 1 - lootss

day 2 - loots

day 3 - last min shopping..

=D

steamy-inng.. will never forget the meatball plus their chilli..

YUMS.. is MK restaurant..

this outlet is at MBK...

'

we had fruits buffet too..

super sweet de mangosteens..

im back from bkk..
super tired cause i cant take leave so i went right back to work after my holiday!!
despite that, i still need to work overtime & i am super de busy one..
why so many ppl remit money la..
cannot use bank transfer meh.. -.-


shall blog about my trip again..
=DD
buy alot of BAGS, Dresses && slippers.... ....


tml will be going to pick up C!!!!
WELCOME BACK TO SG !!!
i know u will miss ur new friends !! but we miss you too !!!



TO A ::  u want weekend or weekday?? weekdays i very hard to know the timing i finish work leh..

super tired..
new work is progressing and there is still many to learn
totally shag but i m totally looking forward to my bkk trip !! in less than 1 day ...
after tml.. i will be sitting on a plane again.. this is totally a super short getaway cos i didnt even take leave on monday when i reach sg ard 12am..


=))


To A::


tat is becos my mum is not around !!
lols.. ok la.. of cos can.. but i finish work at 730pm sometimes may have OT.. if want muz faster before i learn all the stuffs and they dun let me off early lo..

hmm, read something sad about..
ABORTION .. it is nothing big about but there are friends around who do that..
i cant judge them but this is sad ::


Hi, Mommy. I'm your baby. You don't know me yet, I'm only a few weeks old. You're going to find out about me soon, though, I promise. Let me tell you some things about me. My name is John, and I've got beautiful brown eyes and black hair. Well, I don't have it yet, but I will when I'm born. I'm going to be your only child, and you'll call me your one and only. I'm going to grow up without a daddy mostly, but we have each other. We'll help each other, and love each other. I want to be a doctor when I grow up.







You found out about me today, Mommy! You were so excited, you couldn't wait to tell everyone. All you could do all day was smile, and life was perfect. You have a beautiful smile, Mommy. It will be the first face I will see in my life, and it will be the best thing I see in my life. I know it already.






Today was the day you told Daddy. You were so excited to tell him about me! ...He wasn't happy, Mommy. He kind of got angry. I don't think that you noticed, but he did. He started to talk about something called wedlock, and money, and bills, and stuff I don't think I understand yet. You were still happy, though, so it was okay. Then he did something scary, Mommy. He hit you. I could feel you fall backward, and your hands flying up to protect me. I was okay... but I was very sad for you. You were crying then, Mommy. That's a sound I don't like. It doesn't make me feel good. It made me cry, too. He said sorry after, and he hugged you again. You forgave him, Mommy, but I'm not sure if I do. It wasn't right. You say he loves you... why would he hurt you? I don't like it, Mommy.






Finally, you can see me! Your stomach is a little bit bigger, and you're so proud of me! You went out with your mommy to buy new clothes, and you were so so so happy. You sing to me, too. You have the most beautiful voice in the whole wide world. When you sing is when I'm happiest. And you talk to me, and I feel safe. So safe. You just wait and see, Mommy. When I am born I will be perfect just for you. I will make you proud, and I will love you with all of my heart.






I can move my hands and feet now, Mommy. I do it because you put your hands on your belly to feel me, and I giggle. You giggle, too. I love you, Mommy.






Daddy came to see you today, Mommy. I got really scared. He was acting funny and he wasn't talking right. He said he didn't want you. I don't know why, but that's what he said. And he hit you again. I got angry, Mommy. When I grow up I promise I won't let you get hurt! I promise to protect you. Daddy is bad. I don't care if you think that he is a good person, I think he's bad. But he hit you, and he said he didn't want us. He doesn't like me. Why doesn't he like me, Mommy?






You didn't talk to me tonight, Mommy. Is everything okay?






It's been three days since you saw Daddy. You haven't talked to me or touched me or anything since that. Don't you still love me, Mommy? I still love you. I think you feel sad. The only time I feel you is when you sleep. You sleep funny, kind of curled up on your side. And you hug me with your arms, and I feel safe and warm again. Why don't you do that when you're awake, any more?






I'm 21 weeks old today, Mommy. Aren't you proud of me? We're going somewhere today, and it's somewhere new. I'm excited. It looks like a hospital, too. I want to be a doctor when I grow up, Mommy. Did I tell you that? I hope you're as excited as I am. I can't wait.






...Mommy, I'm getting scared. Your heart is still beating, but I don't know what you are thinking. The doctor is talking to you. I think something's going to happen soon. I'm really, really, really scared, Mommy. Please tell me you love me. Then I will feel safe again. I love you!






Mommy, what are they doing to me!? It hurts! Please make them stop! It feels bad! Please, Mommy, please please help me! Make them stop!






Don't worry Mommy, I'm safe. I'm in heaven with the angels now. They told me what you did, and they said it's called an abortion.






Why, Mommy? Why did you do it? Don't you love me any more? Why did you get rid of me? I'm really, really, really sorry if I did something wrong, Mommy. I love you, Mommy! I love you with all of my heart. Why don't you love me? What did I do to deserve what they did to me? I want to live, Mommy! Please! It really, really hurts to see you not care about me, and not talk to me. Didn't I love you enough? Please say you'll keep me, Mommy! I want to live smile and watch the clouds and see your face and grow up and be a doctor. I don't want to be here, I want you to love me again! I'm really really really sorry if I did something wrong. I love you!










I love you, Mommy.






Every abortion is just…






One more heart that was stopped.


Two more eyes that will never see.


Two more hands that will never touch.


Two more legs that will never run.


One more mouth that will never speak.

my first day of work spells BORING ~
practically is being chuck in a corner cos my "mentor" is on MC..
and i haven got my access card/ user id & blah blah blah...
seems that my manager is always not around..heard that he is an old ah pek aka uncle type la..

on my third day, he actually came over and ask me how m i and i was abit stunned.. becos i cant rmb who he was and when i finally realised who he is, he already went to talk to others... -.-
*bad impression*

well, my others "younger" colleagues doesnt seem very friendly cos they normally hang out among themselves.. and my mentor is an auntie so the aunties do talk to me.. =)
well, i cant judge much of them cos i'm still very new.
im glad that one of the officer actually say i did well but he say he will be giving me more work when i come back on tue.. -.-
is that a good thing?
oh well, better than nothing..

work seems to get better..
other things seems to be getting worse..
cant explained in such a way that ppl can understand... just hope everything goes well..





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saturday night out !!
went bedok 85 for dinner & durians...
had a super headache already by then..

watched "street dance" afterwards and it is awesome except for the last part which ended like "huh?"
well, the dance steps is really cool.. just the british-english speaking part is not what i normally hear..
it makes my understanding abit kinda blur..
overall is nice too.. * will have the urge to go clubbing ~

in the middle of the night, i got up and start having like diarrhea ! FML...
i was like totally drop dead in the toilet but my stomach is soo damn pain..
i guess it might be the durians i ate by the roadside near bedok 85 hawker centre..
well, it is the first time i ate durian by the roadside wad..
anw, i cant slp after that.. woke up around 9.30 am in time to watch doraemon .. =P



TO A::
in what way i talked like a housewife sia..
anw, i got the urge to sing again.. but then, i think my work mostly end at 7.30 or later -_-
so sad...

2nd day of orientation, also mark the last day of orientation !!
have a fun but super tiring day !!!
what we have to do?
i got a group of 14 .. and uob got these like 4 cores values?


"UOB Group lies our four core values: Integrity, Teamwork, Trust and Respect, and Performance Excellence."



so wad we need to do is to go different branches, find out how is their services & how is it linked to the 4Cs ...
so yep, we went to raffles main branch after that to tiong bahru & then back to bugis ..
our class is located at SMU so we have our last stop at bugis..
well, there is some qns to be ans along the way.. i even msg nise
 to help me find an ans at her branch.. *we didnt want to travel there becos there is a time limit of 4 hours..
need to have lunch and prepare the presentation as well within this time frame..
is super shag de lor...

anyway, we didnt get the first prize also.. the reward is starbucks voucher.. dunno how much..
sighs~ but everybody did hav another consolation prize of a $10 value ezlink card imprinted with our uob 4Cs !! that is abit unglam but is still money & it is also to cover our transportation fees as well.

so that is about all !
tml is going to start going to tamp le !! yay..  \(^_^)/


TO A ::
u shld be so grateful i came la.. after tt go home wash clothes is like damn tired lo. ~~~
anw.. nise is at the 6th floor leh. dunno can meet dao her anot.. hopefully bah ....

first day of the orientation !!
it is super lame kind? like those poly schools get-together session..
firstly we got the colourful "name-tags" and the we grp according to the same colours and then introduce ourselves to the grp members.. after that u need to introduce to the whole class. *why cant they do it tgt??

well, i really hate these kind of stuffs..
the grp work & the super bored-to-tears presentation.. i nearly fell asleep then..
didnt meet alot of nice ppl, cos their position are so much higher than me..
some senior officers, AM, managers or even a VP !! wth..
im only a small clerk la..somemore is contract basis..
diaos.. so i dun want to mingle with them.. their topic is like so alien to me.??
dunno bout wad sibeh chim banking matters.. privillage or sumthing?? cant get thru.. so i chose to be alone..

worst of all, i wore my new heels & makes me like fck !!
totally feel like shit the whole day...
not enough? they still send me a super talkative aunty on my way back home, she keep talking n talking bout the rude HR and dunno who else..
even worst is that she is staying at tamp & same branch/lvl as me... sighs ~


hopefully tml will be a better day ~

=D

offically over ~
im starting my new job in 2 days time..
excited? afraid? a little of everything..
i got a super mixed emotions of everything.. every little things i do affects me alot.
so, i rather stay at home n watch my shows..
no doubt that i have a great rest and all .. also get to hang out a little with some ppl..

finally get some time of my own..
this feelings is great but it is going to end soon once i start work again..

sighs~

anyway, at least i get to look forward to bkk trip in 2 weeks time !!
i just pray that there is no bomb when i m there.
-_-
if i meant to die, of cos i will die, but hopefully not in a bomb attack la..
i wish to die nicely & stay in shape leh..

welcome ! my new phrase of life ~

sucks

This feeling sucks much.. I hope the day pass faster n let me leave this place quietly.. How could they??

My workload is divide into 3 now!!!
How angry can tt be..
Tis pass 2 years, i have all along doing everything, now tt i am leaving, u can divide my work into 3!!!
Wtf am i still even missing this place.
Karen Lim - may u rot in hell..
When we wanted to divide my work, u asked to divide equally but u dun wan to teach or dun wan to teach, now u can teach this new staff!! Great right.. Please die faster n i wont even feel sad bout it..
And the team leader tt accept everythin it is becos u dun want to offend Karen, pls continue to pray to ur god for commiting so much sins...
And the new staff- u are not new, only trf to my team, and i am sooo glad tt they take care of u so well!! Stop showing ur attitude to me.. Thks!!!!!!
And now, fuck off from my life...

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i have a super great night ytd & it is fabulous ~~

fireworkss - timbre - powerhouse - back hm

all my problems/worries are gone for the time being..
but everything came back when i woke up.. it's a diasater..
why cant he just leave us alone and stay where he is to their own personal world..
it doesnt make sense.. we're not even tt impt to him..

i just got the problems off my mind and everything come back in a shot.
feel weird.. feel terrible ..
i cant get the problems done..
i need some time alone to figure out..

gone

I seriously think i am in super bad luck.. I gt weird colleagues taking over me.. N they are all with weird tempers.. And i totally couldnt get it.. I am now so glad i m leaving this place.. I would die if i stay longer.. *prays*

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* roarsss *

really damn hate them.. the attitude they given me..
i helped them out without any complaints & it's already my last week..
you guys still make me work like tt..

the one i called one of my team member , thanks for making my life totally feel like shit over there..
i really hate to admit it, but u are a total bitch..
u can act all u want now & be a goody person which make me look bad but i have always true friends by my side..
i seen your true colour & i know it is a little late, at least now i wont even miss you ... ...

go to hell ~
*hopefully*


TO A:: No prob on thurs !! =)

this is soo damn irritating,,
why do u guys treat me like tt when i am leaving..
piling the work onto me as if i am a machine??
and in another way, booking me for "farewell lunch" ??
what is the matter with u ppl...!!!

AND u !! i dun even knw how you could even say this to otherss?? u will help when i'm gone?? that is super GREAT.. let's see how long u can help out with her..
freaking aunty.. i am so surprised that i can tahan u for the whole 2 years plus.. i knw others were quarreling with u back then, but i tot i could avoid tt.. anw, i am glad tt i'm leaving..
for the past 2 years, my things are finally dividing into 2 ... finally there's someone to share the workload.. and i have to wait till i tender my resignation letter so that i could get tt 2 weeks treatment of sharing my work..

pathetic, i think..
hate the feeling of being used..
argghhhh.!!



HEY A::: finally i am going to sing with u ??? when is that day ?????????????
coming soooonnnn ~~~

it's sooo fluffy, i'm gonna die !!! *it's the trend now...
Click below to watch ...

IT"S SOO FLUFFY !!!   <----










damn super duper cute !!!!!! oMG !!




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A:: is then damn hard for me to plan with u.. u are always packed, almost i tink.. lols..

it is confirmed ..
i have done it..
i have made it happen !!!
lols..
mad..





i am going to have a new job..
my last day at DHL will be on the 27th July 2010.
i am sad n happy at the same time.. i do admit i have some great colleagues but i am leaving them now.
happy that i am able to move on towards another company.

i feel like singing !
MR A. !!! when is ur singing session coming before u start school huh ???


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taken unpaid leave again..
i am soo going to broke if i continue like that..
=(

happy gatecrashing today..

i have taken my nap 2 times a day ??? been too tired ! YESsh..
working is a pain now.. i have tendered my resignation letter, boss have yet signed.. he's giving me 2 weeks to reconsider, to think again but my team leader is panicking who will b taking after my things..
she send a spy to learn from me, someone to report on my stuffs to her..
it's a like super uncomfortable.
when i am teaching her, it is fine. but the way she is using me is way too much.
when they tender, they immediately stop giving them invoices to do, but me? i am still doing my daily routine and teaching at the same time, even if i am on mc or unpaid leave, the job eventually still leave it on my table.!
why ??

anw, i have a job offer.
if everything is well, i will be signing the contract the coming week.. =)
i dun have the courage to tell my boss this too..
he counter-offer me and mayb i can change my grp too.. but with the working enviroment, i dunno how much long i can last..  and to think bout it, i will be stuck like for years and i know i dun want that..
i dunno how to open my mouth to reject cos he is like quite good to me.. like kinda daddy .. *(i am not talking about my AM btw.. totally different person. he dun even talk to me now after i tender.. -_-)


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tml will be the big day for JO.. yep.. she's getting married  ! i am gonna wake up ard 4 plus in the morning to get prepared. cos i will need to go eunos for that.. preparation shld get started !!!
totally happy for her and i also pray that her husband-to-be will stay faithful to her.

i finally tender liao !! if everything goes well, my last day will be on the 27th July 2010..
well.. i feel sad to leave my colleagues, those who really treat me well.. talk alot and joke alot.. but some things just arent meant to be...

TL said sad to see me leave but behind was finding ppl to take over my job quickly & she doesnt even want to learn herself those complicated ones !! cant understand.. plus boss haven even comfirm my resignation yet!
speechless ~


anw, went check up today.. it's so pain when they draw my blood.. but i still bear with it.. i'm alone and i need to be strong... everything is fine..
hopefully will be able to discuss bout the job soon ..

Wedding Gatecrash?
what does it mean? to humiliate your own husband for fun or just to let him know that marrying you is not easy? will it make him cherish u more when the gatecrash is more difficult?
or will he leave you if the gatecrashing is easy?
this is just part of the tradition isnt it?

with or without gatecrash, does it make a different to your marriage?
do ppl judge it that way...?
i dun want gatecrush because i dun want to humiliate my own husband , is it wrong to think that way?
what does it mean that i'm so scare that he will leave me just becos i dun want gate crash.
actually gatecrashing is fine, but do the sisters know how not to overdo it??

there're so much to think about. that's what make wedding so troublesome..
yes, it is fun.. but i still feel respecting others is still a MUST to consider.

hmm. not talking bout my experience of cos..
all the ones i'm involved love their husband so much that they wouldnt bear to humiliate them. =)

her ROM dinner on the 16th Jun 2010

too busy so i'm updating in the office.. shhh~
well. have a super busy week becos of my sis wedding. but i have to be busy again for another wedding..!!
It's not like i am not happy for her but i'm really exhasted and i am always restless ...

well, it went well that day.. everybody is happy for her and she gets to enjoy in her lovely suite @ M Hotel as well as Meritus Mandarin.. *she book two !!!!
enjoying life... ! and she even bought me a top when she came back home the other day.. birdnest for my mum. it get a little weird that she is not around on weekdays as well.. so i getting to adapt it althou the clothes are not moved yet till her new house come.

super love these ..

her wedding dinner day @ M Hotel.

erm, for the MC part.. well, i cant deny that i'm super nervous but i think all goes well except for the part that i didnt ask the guest to stand up for the "YUM SENG" part..

my partner forget so i didnt mentioned it as well.

so sorry !

my partner was another nervous one too but he kinda have the courage to lead the yum seng on..

GOOD JOB!!

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after the wedding??

interviews of cos..

went for a few including govt & UOB *thanks to nise*

govt : pay is lesser cos they dun regconise my diploma, higher benefits,bonus etc, no OTs.. but far from my house, no camera phone.. able to study part time if i want cos of the working hrs.

UOB: pay should be higher, OTs is compulsary but super near my house. i cant study cos their working hrs is 10am - 7.30am. excluding the OTs thou. but they are actually in need of ppl urgently so i dunno they can wait for me to serve my 1 month notice..

well, if everything goes well, i will be able to get a new job soon.. =)