okie.. here's the receipe for home-made POPCORN!!!
wow.. sound interesting right.. i always wanted to make my own popcorn ..
with ur own sweetness & salty-ness.

here's it ::

basically, u will need those corn or something then just heat them up as the above..

thanks to mich..

i'm gonna try it one day and let u guys know the results !!

u can keep it in the container if unable to finish .. so mayb u can sneak it inside the movies??

can save lotsa money if can.. wahahahas ~ jus kidding..

dun get caught..

ok, this post is random of my life ::

i have finally done & finish with the presents wrapping thingy.. i love giving stuffs & i hope they will like it..
most importantly, i hope they appreciate it..

i do the wrapping and the gift tag is also done by me !! yay..

i'm super excited to be able to give them.. =)

mayb this is the last xmas i'll be going thru w them..

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time for baking :::

today's menu ::

Choco cupcakes w cream cheese & choco chips filings..

blending ...

without the cheese filing..

adding the cheese & choco chips..

done !! i made some small ones with the leftover batter..

i think the small ones are niceer..

Lastly ::

TO C ::
hahas.. i know he's full of crap.. i was like entertaining him =))
yeah, i will update every now & then when i'm free.. u too hor..
i loves to see ur nephews & nieces all.. so cute.. !!
oh ya! merry xmas & happy new year to you!

TO him ::
I'm not exactly copying u k.. in the first place, u nv apply for the copyrights thingy..
so yep, i am not copying !! =P
and yes.. the xmas card is calculated nicely so u'll be able to recieve in time..
i always tot that the postman will be late when it comes to festive season.. glad it arrive in time..

ok here's another post for my daddy's bday !!
the photos are not upload to my FB yet, i'm gonna do it later on.. hehes..

daddy's birthday held at dian xiao er ::

this damn exp meal cost me $163 even after staff discount of 15%!!

* oh, one of my dad's cousin is working there.

i'm sharing w my sis for this meal sooo i just paid $95 to her..

super broke..

the food is quite nice mayb a little exp..

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well, finally xmas is over, daddy bday is over.. time for my year end closing which means i need to work late again.. the good part is that OT resume but is only like $7 bucks per hr.. better than nothing .. =(

well, start w xmas celebration post ::

@ dee's house ** Cheers to everybody !!!

Santa is here.. to give us each a sock filled with .........

here's it is .. CHOCOS & SWEETS..

i know i cant eat but they are sitting in my fridge waiting for my cough to recover ! =)

that my present from deidrea..

yes, i love pink! so here's my nail strengthener plus lip gross =))

* a side note :: i really appreciate that ppl is choosing present for someone & i sincerely thank the person for giving it a thought and the time to go and get it .

for those who doesnt appreciate, then dun make others feel like we owe u k..

i took my time, wrap it up & here u are complaining that i shld get something better!!

go and re-wrap it & give it to others then..  i dun owe u.

unhappy things are to be cast aside..

here's our xmas log cake.. PLUS, it's durian flavour..

these are the reason i'm back with sore throat & cough.. sads.. =(

loves the samosas/drumlets and everything nice !!

after the cake cutting/counting down/opening of presents..

me n bf head back home to open our own presents!! hehes.

that him with his present *

and mine ! =)

on xmas day ::

we're having xmas meal ::

cajun spice chix steak with grilled asparagus plus

pasta ! his lovess. but i dun really eat pasta.. is for him.

hmm, that is all for xmas..

today is XMAS EVE.. what u guys gonna do ???
well, i will be heading to dee's house for xmas exchange gifts plus lotsa food & martell && i think there's a small xmas tree?? hopefully so.. =))
i love wrapping presents tooo.. there's a bunch of xmas small gifts i need to wrap for my office ladies & gentlemen, proudly presents by ME & BELLE & AINI ...
hm, it will be a late xmas gift anyway cos i got no time for that..

im gonna repack them into smaller packs..!! im loving it ~~

tml is xmas & sat is daddy's birthday !!

Merry Xmas EVERYONE !!!!

* may ur dreams come true *

For Him ::

Hey, that's super bad for me to bring taimei back k..

how bout others?? easier to find kinds?? =J

Anw, i tink i recover liaos.. hopefully the durian logcake wont make me sick again ! *prays*

oh, what surgery do u have. do take cares too!!

&& study hard ~

For C ::

i copy him one lar, he write to u i also wan to write..

THANKS for ur blessing & all..

=)))

i have one day of MC.. is like once in a year i'm getting mc.
what so bad about getting MC??
is the loads of shit u were be getting when u return back to the office..  guess i will be doing ot tml =(
and another bad thing is.. u got nothing to do except for slp slp slp ... i hate medicine. . plus i dun even know why the doc give me 3 diff types of medicine for my stomach pain/gastic and 1 for cough BUT none for my sore throat???? wth..

im super bored at home..
hmm, guess i will do some christmas wrapping blah blah...
i need my lunch too so i think i have to go out and buy right.. (^_^)V

xmas time !! taken at ION last wed i think.. **

=((
having sore throat becos of durian cakes ++ swimming ++ fries and everything nice !!
just a "GREAT" thing to have when x'mas is coming .. i'm super upset larr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

back from all the chaletss & i'm so glad that it's all over ... super shack out with all these stuffs and i think my weekends are all occupied with things..
did i tell u guys that i'm going taiwan in JAN?? ok, i'm heading there sOOONNNnn.. i mean real soon.. is like less than a month.. i feel so lost and everything is not yet done..
OMG.. i really need some time now..

so lets have some updates then..

firstly shld be cardiii 's chalet :::

and my clubbing w khakis**

plus love's BD ::

happy birthday..

is durian cake ___

finally ger's chalet ::

is durian cake AGAIN lor..

that explain my sore throat ba... =(

i'm so looking forward to the xmas eve party held at dee's hse..

i need to recover sooNNNnnn..

***

im so sorry that i haven upload the photos yet on FB.. i think there's a prob to upload anyway.

too much photos/ too little time..

mayb i just upload once this month is settle down..

hm..

still have xmas eve party and my daddy's birthday and and and NEW YEAR !!

still thinkin where to celebrate or just stay at home ?

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE ***

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to him ::

Glad you have finish ur police life..

hope u can get a job real soon !!! =)

tc & ba xia *

i have so much to blog!!!
there is so much going thru my mind.. in a confused state..
everything went so blur and i dunno what to do.. what is it best for me..
i know ppl will be saying how stupid i am..

but the problem is that i tot friends for so many years n to finally find out how you treat your friends make me so disappointed in you.

yes, i know i will stay quiet but that doesnt mean that i wont be angry in whatever you've done.  that is what everybody will do..
from young, my mum dun like siblings to quarrel and i would avoid to quarrel with anybody at all cost ( not include relationship thou ) between frens/family/colleagues ...
as i grow older, i tend to tolerate bits by bits when im upset by things ppl do to me..

now, when everything surface up, i feel totally taken advantage of..

but... ... i still wouldnt say "no"...  tis is my lesson learnt and im being hurt deeply by friendship.
since it's gonna be ur big day, i dun wish to make it something bad when u look back.
i really want to make it enjoyable, but somehow, my mood & heart isnt there anymore..
i become so afraid that the weekends are coming and i have to face it once & for all.....
nevertheless, i will really keep trying. i hope.. *prays*

*****

last of all..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CARDIKY*new nickname from dee

photos of his birthday will be upload soon..

cheers..

his chalet was fun thou he was already half drunk when his relatives left and haven even play much yet..

mostly was BBQ-ing after that.. * miss the spicy drumlets..

be happy*be contented

******

stay happy___

things to take note for happiness to find you ::::

* do not take things for granted

** be appreciative to everyone

*** do not make comparison, it will make things competitive & u will nv be happy

**** treasure everyone around you

Lastly,

BE CONTENTED no matter what you have.

me: eh, i'm going to help belle belle do her detaching ok ?
TL: erm...erm...
me:  *shut her up* i already do finish my things.
TL: ah.......
me:  i will do my things when they segregate later.
TL: ok lor.

me: im helping belle belle do her detaching k.
EJ: ah.......
me: i already do finish my things.. nothing to do now.
EJ: *nod nod*


___ i cant believe helping ppl actually need permission from them..
*sighs*
but seeing how they react make me so laugh..
they dun even wanna help lar.. they muz be laughing inside their heart like "finally got ppl do liao.. heng arhz"
lols.
anyway.. going off to cardi's BBQ night.. miss the spicy drumlets!!!!

due to the super busy months, i really need a break..
so ytd, i date my love for a horror movie : CASE 39 !!
hmm, it came slow in the beginning but turn our exciting later on..
* yeah.. i love spending money to scare myself..
i really hate the little girl's face / eyes and everything is eerie to me..
mayb a 3/5 for verdict.. * im scared due to the little girl facial expressions !! thumbs up..


i still hate my work.

i dunno whether people can be trusted anot.. how do u see whether this person is truthworthy??
i know i have written some nasty comments bout my SE, so what!!
so what if im complaining bout them? if they feel that im accusing them, just talk to me and i will explain every single thing to you. why you have to go to my close ones to tell them when they are not even involve in this things.
if you have done nothing wrong, why cant you talk to us? u have to go thru others so that it can reach us.
and u know what, we dun even get our chance to voice out anything.. this is called company politic i think..
but who cares when we cant even voice out.. even if we did, you will be saying another thing again..
did you ever listen to us? so if im having breakfast with boss then im safe izzit?? i cant go breakfast with the ppl of low rank u mean??

so how bout work wise??
which one would u choose:
a disciplinary problematic staff but able to produce work and doing more than others, wouldnt mind doing OT...
or
a no disciplinary problem team leader which cant lead but unable to produce work result, cant work OT or even work more cos she cant handle more than what she can do!!

personally, i have no time to even help out my colleagues ever since the "do-your-own" detaching implement. i cant cope and im feeling stress out more n more often.
ppl see my shag face plus my temper is getting worse, just becos i couldnt finish my things.
not only that i'm feeling shag/tired/stress, i also feel guilty of approaching others to help me.. i try to finish fast so that i can do it myself, but there's no way to do that.. becos there's no one to share my workload, not even my whole team..
some will ask why i couldnt share the work with them, but only the close ones will know that i couldnt and they wouldnt.
i know i have cried alot of times becos of the above but i just couldnt control.. i really hate them sooo sooo much.. arent we children of our parents too? would u understand that if i tell you all this..

after much talking, my last resort is to go inside boss office and talk things out..
i shouldnt involve other pple that are going to stay in this company for long.. i shall face it on my own..
right now, i tink i need some script in order for this to go smoothly..
i need some time..

* im speechless*

shopping over the weekends with belle n love.
took neoprint with belle__ is like few hundreds years since we have last taken them.. misses the time like tt..
ot freeze, everything freezes as well..
well, at least we took time out play mah.. :)

i like tis one..

and this..

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ytd night was movie night with the pairs..

belle_calvin

nii_yoyoyo

mi_love

`NEW MOON```

hm, movie reviews: NICE BODY for Jacob!!! 5/5

for the movie: well, those who read the book already knows what's going on right..

but those who didnt, it might make u abit boring as the story goes..

but anyway, the books is of cos better than the movie.

3.5/5

damn nice body.. LOVESSSS

 i would choose him if i'm bella..

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i blog at work is not becos im too free but i feel too stress to go on anymoree..
i dun wan them to worry bout me.. and i know they will..
but those who worry doesnt have the power to change anything..
and those who doesnt even care, have the power to do so..
i feel restless & tired of everything single thing that is going on around here.
how can ppl be so fake towards the "boss son" when he only came here to learn something.
he is not going change anything but why does attitude towards him can be so much different from the way they are treating us.. dun u see guys, he does not have the power to promote u or say anything good in front of his dad will he?
and stop treating him as a god!!
as a senior.exe, have u done anything?? for god sake, the only things i have seen u doing is when u push the blame onto someone else when shit happens..
ur excuses are the same everytime.. " this is not what i wan, is what the management wants "... that it..
your job is done whenever u said these becos we cant do anything..
how clever can u guys be.. i would say, GREAT JOB.. it really makes out day..
cos we cant even take a break and the jobs keep on coming..
and guess what, i think i will really make up my mind to quit this F***ing job when the times comes..
i wont give a shit whether the newcomer will learn anything..
*claps claps*

-_-
back to work/reality.........

cant fucking know what the hell she wanted..
whY muz you step into my world.. why cant u just be at ur own world and not step into our world..

and why muz u give me the attitude that i'm at fault when you nv even considered my feeling..
how i feel??
you only care what is right and what is wrong..
and u feel nothing wrong bout ur decision..

December is coming !! so what next??
busy month i have.. hmm, let's see :
25-27 Nov : MONTH END CLOSING is always e tired one!! *hate it.. and it's compulsory staying ot.. =(
2nd Dec : Car practical Lesson
6th Dec : Outing w Belle Belle.. (wait very long liaos!!)
8th Dec : Evo's Birthday (belle's dog)
11th - 13th Dec : Cardi's chalet !!!
14th Dec : Secret =X
15th Dec : Car practical Lesson
17th Dec : Special's Birthday
19th - 21th : Germaine's Chalet !!!
24th Dec : Christmas Eve Gathering w Keong & gang
25th Dec : Christmas Day
26th Dec : Daddy's Birthday Plus Office Import Billing Christmas Gathering **
28th Dec : Car Practical Lesson again..
31th Dec : New Year EVE!!

i guess im going to broke by the end of this year =l
help me god.. let me win something !!

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Just attend finish Jo's chalet.. let see.. hmm, mostly busy w cleaning up the chalet...

plus swimmiing blah blah..

they're trying to throw Jo into the pool but kanna stop by her daughter.. damn funny scene to look at..

__________

& there's irritating bastards disturbing me n jo while we're on our way to buy stuffs..

F*** them..

`i was super stunned when they disturb us, but now... i feel that i should just slap them that moment.. oh well, too late....... =P

went back early to have dinner..

super shag out already..

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as usual.. is for you !
jia you too !!

terrible flu have conquered me over the weekend.. =(
but still struggle to go orchard just to take some pics of the christmas light..
i always love christmas.. (mayb the counting down towards christmas)..
becos it's always so bright and beautiful everywhere.. the music, atmosphere and the ppl's laughter..
we can shop thru and find the perfect gifts for ur loved ones... and it also mark the ending of a year....
how have u been spending thru this year?? what do we look forward to next year??
everything is nice..

the ION christmas tree..

the inside of the christmas tree.. it's totally amazing !!!

_like a fairytale dreamland_ i love it ....

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ytd was my company "DHL movie nite" event... we were given free passes to movie at Gv marina..
have watch "2012".. hmm, the graphics and everything is nice.. some funny parts too..
the only thing i dun like about this event is our ppl queueing up to "grab" seats.. as it's a free seating event..
those who are late will be end up in the front row for this 2hrs plus movie.. -_-
lucky i manage to get the middle ones!! =)

they cut my queue as i was somewhere in the middle..

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today is a bad bad day.. i was rushing thru my things and dunno where the invoices are piling up.. !!

tml i'm on leave for some matters to attend. so, i end up working late again to finish up my stuffs including tml invoices.. other grp may not need to do this but sad to say.. my grp is different from others..

not only i do so much more compared to them, but i feel really helpless when one dun even offered to help me and another one "fake" helping.. i have to do all my things after all..

even if i finish my billing for tml, it's still not enough..

i dun know why other grp can offered to help me but yet u both just stand by and watch me die..

very happy right!! damn..

another thing was bout belle.. anyway.. got kind of angry with her but nothing already..

=l

*******

i read it..

and hopefully, our friendship still can continue after all..

may the time wash away all ur unhappiness.

you're still someone special to me.

just like others, hope that one day.. we can talk again. =)

Terrible flu plus terrible day.. izzit becos it's Friday the 13th??
Sis & Dad pass their "flu" virus to me!!!  GREAT!!! *prays hard* that i recover soooNNNnn..
tml still have to work again.

plus, i am so damn irritated by my invoices today till i breakdown becos of it..
it's a kind of strange feeling.. first i kanna cut, then i feel a sudden anger and i keep scolding the invoices to myself and i was going dizzy , head damn pain and cried.. ...
i dunno why i cried but i totally lost control.. but oh well.. it just lasts for a few mins..
the flu covered it well enough that nobody except those close ones knew. =)


hmm..
hmmmm..
hmmmmmm..

i totally recommend this book!!

althou i didnt actually purchase it, i was reading thru my phone as ebook..

the story was so thrilling that i even get scared or make me so damn excited that i couldnt stop reading !!!!

if u have read Dan Brown's Da Vinci Code & Angels & Demons, you should really really read this one..

i haven finished yet but i find it really hard to stop reading it..

Try reading it.!!

Rain... ...

Sometimes i really wondered what is my place in you?

Sometimes i wondered what i am to you?

Or

Am i even important as a part of your life as Fren?

//

"Don't be dismayed at goodbyes. A farewell is before you can meet again. And meeting again after a moment or a lifetime is certain for those who are friends."

//

i have finally got my hands onto the precious TX1 - Blue..
it cost me almost $800.. including the extra batt i die die must have ($89), screen protector ($8), 2 X 8GB memory stick ($69 EACH) plus a tripod & also additional of 2 years extended warranty..
i damn love it ~~~
<3

&&&
watch SAW VI at ps.. yeah! it's the first R21 movie since i turned 21..  but super disppointed when they didnt even ask me for my IC.. =((
i dun even look old right.. !! T_T
anyway, im quite contented with the story line and all.. but as usual, it nv ends......
there's quite a number of gruesome scenes but i still can take it.. =)

happy moments are always with ur frens & family & best of all.. ur loved one.
ytd was celebrating at wz chalet for his birthday PLus the halloween thingy..
my costume was just a black dress and a red witch hat.. i wanted to bring my broom la, but find it so stupid..
i dun normally wear a dress to a chalet k, so im super giving wz face liao..
and and and.....
the first time in my whole friendship with keong n cardi, i see them putting make-up.. wahahahahas..
the result : SUPER COOL & CUTE LAR.. (thk to sb's gf for her makeup)
seriously..
i dun dare to post it here.. but mayb facebook also will have.. but better not..
think keong gonna kill me if im like advertising him here...
*cardi outfit suit him the best.. !! he damn hyper also.. =P
totally fun and it's once in a lifetime.. i dunno whoever would be going to do something like this again..

pictures posting everywhere and nearly every min..
went back around 2 plus cos dear is damn tired already but they were still there taking photos lar..
*
to be continued......

what actually are friends??
do you do things behind your friends back or will you face it and admit whatever you are feeling even if it hurts her/him??

i always feel at lost when friends among friends feel uncomfortable/upset/angry or even jealous of each other.
jealous can also come in form like envy..
i always envy my friends like if they have good job, good charisma, good relationship with people becos i dun have all this things.. and as my character, i would nv speak well with strangers around me..
this same thing when i learn my driving, i always panicked and do all the stuffs that make the instructor goes mad.
but i often think of what are the best things i have now: lovely family, caring bf and some nice friends ard... it balance off.

i do encourage that friends should keep updated of themselves every now n then..

you do know that we care. mayb time cant accomodate every ppl, but still... we cares...

a bunch of friends that can click together doesnt comes easily..

i hope we can maintain that friendship as long as we can..

i been quite mean to some of them when i have bad moods. hope they dun mind..

i am so sorry if i ever neglected any one of them..

love all of you !!

aw, finally closing for this month is finish.. super long since ot is resume back and i end up working till late night again.. this feeling come back again.. i always tot that working at night can be quite happy, there's nobody around to order us or supervise us..
but today.. i feel so demoralise.. i have damn alot of invoices to bill...
althou my team members offered to help, i tried my best to clear them my own and give a little to them... BUT what i exchanged was "pple all take abit then u dun have to do already lor".. others can see how much i have done, but my team members see nothing..
i know i previously have some conflicts with them, thus, communication with them is too much for me..
i just want them to leave me to do my things peacefully.

anyway, off with the stupid work.. i have been super tired and restless. dunno why... hmm.

* have a great outing on last saturday:
house-warming @ pasir ris

dinner @ vivo city/Marche
halloween night @ sentosa
dee's birthday @ Jab1
AND and AnD... i played 2 rounds of pool with cardi WON!!!
Yay!

i tot we're only "billing girls", since when we become "everything u need to do-it-yourself girls"
how easy you are to send an email and change every procedures we're going thru.
lucky i have really good colleagues to help me out today, if not... i dunno what time will i be staying tonight..

im so sick & tired of all ur offices politics or whatever you guys are planning.
i going to stay low for these 3months and leave quietly.

*i hate big company*!!!







..u are being missed..

i want to change camera..
but im torn btw sony t-90 (PINK) & samsung st550 (PURPLE)..
wah.. so headache.. but there's still 2 more months before i get anything..


*friends are important parts in your life.
i dunno how things are going on for you.. but i hope that all well end well..
i miss the times we're best of best pals.. but now.. there seem to be another one replacing me..
althou im upset, but still wish you all the best.

=)

super lazy to use com already, i feel like sleeping every day.. =/
lucky we have a holiday on sat.
sat is my grandmother's birthday, but we went there for a short while and go out after that.

dear meet his friends for dinner and drink at united square. since is their "all guys" outing, i ask xl & ch to come and accompany me for dinner there.

the restaurant we went serve high quality beef but is damn expensive lar.. we are going budget so.....

we order sirloin beef at $12.90 for 10 slices.. (it's expensive but VERY YUMMY)

i actually wanted to capture the lights behind..!!

anyway, they treat me ben n jerry ice cream after that.. yummy! it seem like the outlet nearby me is always close down. i think the nearest one is at city hall? =(

there's one at white sand initally but it close down too.