TO ALL THE SHIT PEOPLE

this post is dedicated to all mentioned below::
TO my boss:
all the best in losing a fine young worker. at ur very own hands.
to be truth, im totally and i mean TOTALLY disppointed in u.. i feel so disgusted to have u as my bOSs..
what is a good boss actually? is to able to protect ur people and to stand what is right..
i think u are standing at a wrong side.
please OPEN up ur eyes and see carefully what the hell are you doing...!!!
anyway, i tink i said it alot of times.. i REallY & sinCerely WISH that YOU'll have a good time NExt Year when im gone..
wow, althou i wish to see u suffer, but it ok. .i just stand and look what will happen.
dun blame us for not being a good teacher then..
i seriously FED up with ur way of doing thinggs.. u are an DUMBASS .. if you think she can help u with it.
DREAM oN!

To THE FUcK UP MELON:::
CoNGrats ON winning MAN.. i think YOU really did a fuCKing Good job in pin-pointing what is wrong and left out the very impt points..
we left it out becos we need to protect those who care for us.
but then, mayb someday, i will let it all out.. and hope ur rice bowl is still safe..
it will be safe anyway, cos we got DUMB bosses..
oh well, what comes around goes around. beware of your back.
do you still have that mask on? keep it on alright, or else everybody will be onto you..
i mean ur face is not that evil, but too bad you have a evil heart.
no wonder i dun see you pray cos even if u pray, nothing good will happen..
you have kids right.. i just hope that the revenge wont be on ur kiDS thou.. * hope there's still justice**

TO THE NO EYES & EARS BIG BOSS:
you make me disppointed too. i always tot there's still some justice in your eyes. but what happen today just show me that justice is really gone.
even if you climb up from the lowest position till now..
in the end, you chose the wrong path.

To Belle:
no matter what , stay strong and nv give up..
stay with what u stand in the first place..

i tot we are supposed to be "billing assistant", since when we are "photocopier assistant"??
why are the extras to be done by us?
why isnt you as our head of dept helping us, backing us up?
why are the words coming out from your mouth different from what you said to others?
im super disppointed & angry being under you...
closing day do end at 1-2am, but why do we have to stay till so EARLY when u're making use of us.
making use of the naive & simple mind we have.
at least i have already woke up. but the others are still bluff by you..
just show us that you even care about us, dun keep talking bout how we're like your daughters.

i love my family.
i dun wan to see them being troubled by money issues, but money is the thing that make them headache.
why? ask the government then.

i also dunno why they force them to pay this by when.. what is the dateline for?
i wont leave them alone.
i just wish my brother can finish his NS asap and find a work to contribute.

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but i found something to cheer me up.
http://mymilktoof.blogspot.com/

is like some short cartoon pictures.. damn cute..
=)

denise's birthday~~

happy sweet 21st to the following:

shixiang - 20/09/09
calene&xiaoshixiong - 24/09/09
denise - 27/09/09
wanting - 28/09/09
michelle&kenny - 30/09/09

i know alot of september babies.!
went to nise's chalet at a very uh-lu place, keong got lost in the end. i think we spend bout 30 mins looking for it. -_-!
but still, we were the first secondary school batch to reach there and regreted lo.. (*i didnt even take a aftnn nap)
cause when we reach there, even denise haven come back yet. =/
we end up sitting there like an idiot.
hm, at least it seem like a huge secondary school gathering lar..
i finally have a good talk with some ppl and all.. im contented..
like saw alot of ppl tt i totally lost contact with..
=))
nonetheless, it's was a night to enjoy and get away from my company stress.
let's see whether monday will have a auntie-girl fight anot.. wahaha..

i know she is damn sad.
i was so sad n find myself useless towards her.
she ask me to accompany her to take bus. cos she feel tt ppl is giving her weird stares.
i know she's blaming herself for the lost of her baby. but things doesnt turn out very well for her.
she needs someone to be around with.
when i left her on the mrt, she return to her depressed face. i tried to talk so much topic with her on the bus, to stop her from looking at others' faces, but i know she's not really concentrating..
my dear, be strong..

but, i cant keep her accompany at all times, i just hope she wont fall into depression.
giving her encouragement is so much harder than i thought. i often find myself speechless.
jia you xiao shi jie.
hais..

i feel really so hurt..

there're alot of programs on the weekends, so many ppl 21st birthday is coming.
my pocket hole is getting so big tt i got no money for breakfast.
lucky tonight my pay will be in again!!
one happy thing to end my day.

she's back.
althou still very emotional. she did some talking to me, but just after a few sentences, tears roll down again.
it happened again n again.

**

not tt only, even belle belle fate is like hell.
the stupid melon, make so much things up.
in the end, belle have to tender her resignation letter. i really feel like kicking her butt for making up so many things.
i wont keep her staying here. it wont help and it makes her feel so much worst.
life already sux for her and yet all these things happen.

i will be there for her.
i hope i'll be able to go to the meeting with boss tml. i want everything to be clarified and make belle's name clear before she leaves. she's not a coward. i am going to record everything the melon says..
dun make ur words like roti prata.
i will slam evidence to ur face.
go Fuck urself.

im tired.
i really hate the feeling of being used.
what the point of having a fren which treat u like this.
i ever wonder. but i am too soft hearted to reject.

*i dun care anymore.

happy birthday to him.
it's so special, his 21st. thou im not able to celebrate with him.
i still wish him best of luck.
i dunno whether we can be friends, like talk and go out as normal, mayb not yet.
i truly hope that as time goes by, i can still be your friend.
of cos, i need to leave u alone now.
i know i have hurt u very much and i know sorry doesnt mean anything now.
for now, i will pray hard for u, missing you as always.
how i wish i can still talk to u like before, but i can know tt it will nv come again.
thank you for everything you have done. everything u have wish for me.
**

i feel i have let down all the ppl tt loves me.
althou i dunno who loves me truly now...
i cant feel anything .
ppl like so fake. i cant see who is real & who is fake.
im like surrounded with ppl. i cant see them.. cant know them.
so confuse and nothing is going well.
nothing at all.

but my heart wont let me.
my desire wont leave me.
please, let me go.
i dun wan to feel left behind.
but i am.

alot of things happened. there're sad ones, happy ones and confused ones.
firstly, congratz to cardi!! for passing his TP & i earn a meal .. yay (^.^)V

...
i know someone out there still feeling down.  and i know i have no rights to contact him anymore.
just truly sorry bout everything i've hurt you.

...
she is coming back to work the coming tuesday.
im happy and afraid at the same time. dunno how to face her, dunno what to talk to her.
i bought a card for her. i think it's the best i can give her.

...
im going for my car prac again.
althou im still sick, but i think i dun wan to waste my money **
jia you YAYA!!

what are friends for?
i keep asking myself this qns today.
and after emo-ing for so long, i just realise tt the most impt person was right infront of me.

will frens treat u like tt? take you for granted? call you when they need your help?
or being impatient & boss you around?

m i an easy target?
im loss for words. n hopeless in friends ...
who are my true frens? i do not know.

this small little boy, was drooling all the way when i carry him. =)

i know sorry mean nothing to you. but you should understand me well.
i cant bear to do it, esp to you. imagine how m i suppose to break this news to you.
and i knew all along tt you are suffering, i really cant.
im not sure whether u will read this, but i know u will.
truly apologised the pain that i have given you.

*

ytd went bugis to walk with ger & her bf & cardi.
bought myself 2 tank tops & a skirt, ok lah.. it's cheap at least.
just want more clothes to work..
dinner at manhanttan fish market, zhao n gf came too.
after tt, went to watch a 8mins 3D horror animations, make me scream like hell. <-- Iluma, the highest floor.
i swear i nearly wet my pants but i didnt lah.

Gamer movie after tt at ehub.
the show is action-packed! althou i didnt catch anything for the first half an hour or so.

back to sleep. zZz

im sorry.
thou i feel so bad, but i cant hide any longer too.

my heart still ache for u.
but i can only say SORRY.

working at dhl is more n more stress.
i dunno what did i do wrong, or how i actually offended them.
keep stabbing behind my back.. wth. arent you praying everyday for ur god to forgive u? and now what's with ur heart so black.
im working harder, mayb 10 times harder than you , and yet you ! were investigating whether im really working anot..
must i report what u done?

how u sit there n shake ur leg, waiting for emails to forward to others ppl, recieving calls telling u tt ur hotel is book, what did u cook for hari raya???
the number of invoices you have billed compare to mine?

why make life so diff for me , while i was trying to do my job here.
did i stay till late night n give you any trouble.

cant understand sia!!

why ppl have a healthy body, but doesnt cherish themselves at all?
all they think was bout life is unfair, u are suffering, u are the unlucky one...
but do you all ever think tt there's ppl who are so sick, so weak. they cant enjoy life like others, they suffer from pain time after time. cant go shopping, cant eat properly. restrictions here n there.

and you, with a healthy body, still can walk, run, eat properly, thinking of ending ur life just becos you happen to meet some mishaps, some problems..
is this the right way to face life?

i ever dreamt tt i wouldnt live for long, mayb i will die of some kind of cancer.
but anyway, i also dunno, and dun feel like going for a check up ..
ah.. i want to enjoy my life to the fullest. to the best of the best .!!