happy birthday to him.
it's so special, his 21st. thou im not able to celebrate with him.
i still wish him best of luck.
i dunno whether we can be friends, like talk and go out as normal, mayb not yet.
i truly hope that as time goes by, i can still be your friend.
of cos, i need to leave u alone now.
i know i have hurt u very much and i know sorry doesnt mean anything now.
for now, i will pray hard for u, missing you as always.
how i wish i can still talk to u like before, but i can know tt it will nv come again.
thank you for everything you have done. everything u have wish for me.
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i feel i have let down all the ppl tt loves me.
althou i dunno who loves me truly now...
i cant feel anything .
ppl like so fake. i cant see who is real & who is fake.
im like surrounded with ppl. i cant see them.. cant know them.
so confuse and nothing is going well.
nothing at all.

but my heart wont let me.
my desire wont leave me.
please, let me go.
i dun wan to feel left behind.
but i am.