30weeks

It 30th Dec 2012... baby inside me as of today is 30weeks now.. this awesome and memorable journey is coming to an end in 10 more weeks.. how exciting..

Ever since I feel the baby's first kick and movement, life nv gotten better.. its a very weird but cosy feeling.. it just made it feel more real and more prepared for the day to come.

Doctor have been advising me to eat more and I did gain some weight along the way.. I am at 55kg now.. omg! I haven reach the 5 number in my life.. but still the baby tummy is smaller than wad it shld b..
He suggest to go for another check up this coming thur. And I hope everything is going smoothly. . Preggie mum tends to worry alot and that is totally true...

I just wish this lil one will b healthy all the way.. health is better than anything.

Our lil precious one..

 This is during the 7 weeks 6 days. Baby is still tiny and small..

My 4th month baby bump.. Usually the 1st pregnancy isnt that obvious i assume..

Im much more energetic now.. but hubby complains that i am getting heavier.. =O
Cant wait to see him/her in a few more days to the detail scan and i pray hard that everything will be ok and he/she is a healthy lil baby..

The baby bump

Yes, my married life is jus the beginning of this small lil life inside of me.. it came unexpectedly and a surprise for both of us..

It marks the 15weeks now..

The beginning was terrible experience. The vomit and feeling i have is depressing. Plus the lost of appetite and made me lose 3kg by now.. it shld hav increase by now but the appetite is jus not coming back. Im praying for my 4th mth, hopefully everything will b fine then..

Another minus point is the increasing outbreak i have on my face and backs.. that is the worst!! And no medicine or exp skincare can help..

The journey haven been too far.. but hubby is always here to support me. I dun hav weird cravings, but i do have craving for the attention.. hubby is extra cautious, mummy and sister hav been caring and accommodating..
All these are positive emotions i felt..

I do not hv a full time job becos i found out before i get myself one.. but luckily, i m back to uob as part timer.. it gives me more time to rest and no ot! Super flexible for me. Althou the 4mths maternity is lost.. but at least i m not overworked.

Cant wait for the lil one to be out.

My married life

The last working days of rabbit year!

This year haven been good. Yet disappointment come regularly. I have seen alot and with so much fear and pain, i dunno how long can i take it.
I do smiled at times, telling myself everything will be alright for me, everything will be fine.

Its just the people, the changes the hardships that i have suffered silently making ppl think tt i am strong enough to overcome all these.
Yes, i have good frens to support me thru all these times, i dun wan them to worry about me.

I am always tt bubbly one, to show the that i cared too. They are the ones who show appreciation to me, support me.
But its still didnt go on well.
People just cross over the line, getting more and more overboard, the workload is too much too handle, too much to cope.
Why didnt u guys see what they have become, why m i/us always to suffer and take that blame jus becos we r being nice. That is the reason why we are being pushed.
Even our basic needs are taken over.
What is going on?
What happen?

Everyday, i came to the fear of all of you. The fear that makes me so unhappy, so lonely, so helpless.
But i still have to smile for it to get over. U all have no idea how i have been thru, no idea how this is so much for us, mentally and physical torturing us. I just wish for the strength to overcome them, the hope for things to get better.

May the God bless us.

Xmas

Xmas xmas xmas is over!! The joyous season of all and the long awaited new year is coming..

This xmas have been busy busy and more busy.. Not about the gifts that i bought, cos its so last min and i haven got the time to buy. I promise next year will be better alright!! Sorry people..

4th year of xmas celebration with hubby, the usual light-seeing.

Well, 2012 is coming.. Time for the real planning for the wedding!!
Jus decide on my actual day gown and the night gown! So many pretty ones but i jus settled on these two! Wait till u guys see it =))

Baby Darlynn~

Here comes baby Darlynn ytd night..
She marks the third child of Jo.. Somehow, i envy and worried about her.. Taking care of 3 children is such a chore man.. And i wonder how i can manage in the future.

Althou i would love to have one now but the time is jus not right yet. We still have so much to do and our flat isnt ready.. How to?!?

Let nature take course bah...

Here's baby Darlynn 1st photo.. Cos he still so soundly asleep and we do not wish to wake her up..

Phuket

I am back from Phuket....
This first trip with my frens (xl and ch) plus husband was totally tiring and all..

The first day wasnt much except that we went to look ard nearby and then watching the simon show was kinda amusing to me, but we sat a lil too far from the stage and i hardly able to see their face actually. Sad! Plus its raining on and off .. At night, we went to see this thai girls show where that bottle of beer cost us 800baht (sgd32+) jus for the show! Wont ever one to watch it again btw..

Second day **
The first time i went island hopping on a speedboat! Feel like dying inside there plus the rocking and the journey is like freaking long from one island to another. With some bunch of french tourists and the trip totally drain my energy. Also my first time to jump into the sea from a boat, totally awesome kinda of feeling !! It jus feels so funny and then having to swin back to the boat and all.. Also relaxing on the beach ~ and there are some fishes swimming ard the water but too fast to catch them. Finally able to see sea water that are clearer than sg ones..
After that whole journey of island hopping, we rush back to the hotel and have only 40 mins to prepare for the next show at Fantasea.
This could be the most boring show ever and cost so much. Totally not worth the money man!


Only bad thing is the stuffs at Phuket are way way overpriced even for their massage.i hardly bought any things for myself cos the money is real tight for me. Most of their packages are super exp kind and we only manage to have one package.