30weeks

It 30th Dec 2012... baby inside me as of today is 30weeks now.. this awesome and memorable journey is coming to an end in 10 more weeks.. how exciting..

Ever since I feel the baby's first kick and movement, life nv gotten better.. its a very weird but cosy feeling.. it just made it feel more real and more prepared for the day to come.

Doctor have been advising me to eat more and I did gain some weight along the way.. I am at 55kg now.. omg! I haven reach the 5 number in my life.. but still the baby tummy is smaller than wad it shld b..
He suggest to go for another check up this coming thur. And I hope everything is going smoothly. . Preggie mum tends to worry alot and that is totally true...

I just wish this lil one will b healthy all the way.. health is better than anything.

Our lil precious one..

 This is during the 7 weeks 6 days. Baby is still tiny and small..

My 4th month baby bump.. Usually the 1st pregnancy isnt that obvious i assume..

Im much more energetic now.. but hubby complains that i am getting heavier.. =O
Cant wait to see him/her in a few more days to the detail scan and i pray hard that everything will be ok and he/she is a healthy lil baby..

The baby bump

Yes, my married life is jus the beginning of this small lil life inside of me.. it came unexpectedly and a surprise for both of us..

It marks the 15weeks now..

The beginning was terrible experience. The vomit and feeling i have is depressing. Plus the lost of appetite and made me lose 3kg by now.. it shld hav increase by now but the appetite is jus not coming back. Im praying for my 4th mth, hopefully everything will b fine then..

Another minus point is the increasing outbreak i have on my face and backs.. that is the worst!! And no medicine or exp skincare can help..

The journey haven been too far.. but hubby is always here to support me. I dun hav weird cravings, but i do have craving for the attention.. hubby is extra cautious, mummy and sister hav been caring and accommodating..
All these are positive emotions i felt..

I do not hv a full time job becos i found out before i get myself one.. but luckily, i m back to uob as part timer.. it gives me more time to rest and no ot! Super flexible for me. Althou the 4mths maternity is lost.. but at least i m not overworked.

Cant wait for the lil one to be out.

My married life

The last working days of rabbit year!

This year haven been good. Yet disappointment come regularly. I have seen alot and with so much fear and pain, i dunno how long can i take it.
I do smiled at times, telling myself everything will be alright for me, everything will be fine.

Its just the people, the changes the hardships that i have suffered silently making ppl think tt i am strong enough to overcome all these.
Yes, i have good frens to support me thru all these times, i dun wan them to worry about me.

I am always tt bubbly one, to show the that i cared too. They are the ones who show appreciation to me, support me.
But its still didnt go on well.
People just cross over the line, getting more and more overboard, the workload is too much too handle, too much to cope.
Why didnt u guys see what they have become, why m i/us always to suffer and take that blame jus becos we r being nice. That is the reason why we are being pushed.
Even our basic needs are taken over.
What is going on?
What happen?

Everyday, i came to the fear of all of you. The fear that makes me so unhappy, so lonely, so helpless.
But i still have to smile for it to get over. U all have no idea how i have been thru, no idea how this is so much for us, mentally and physical torturing us. I just wish for the strength to overcome them, the hope for things to get better.

May the God bless us.