i haven been updating for soooo long..
sometimes i'm just plain tired .. i'm getting restless at my job.. but it's coming.. the end of jun when i will be gone for all these things.. i dunno what to feel, so confused, so happy & sad at the same time ...
i dunno how my next job will be or if i ever find a job ..
getting to meet new ppl and everything will be new to me.. i'm scared at the same time.
but someone says if i dun get out of the "comfort zone" i'm having, there's no way to know what's happening outside. so, i decided tt i need to get out no matter what..

so now, the friends part come in..
at times, i dunno whether i'm hanging out w the right ones.
the one who treat me like an enemy & a "sister" .. the way she can treat others but nv me.
the way she is demanding or thinking tt i might snatch something or someone away from her...
they way she wants to win me from anything or everything.
does it matter so much in a friendship..
i totally have no idea..
i really wondered why i'm still there.

... ...

tt becos we're still friends? no, i treat her like a friend. but i still need the respect from her.
no, she will always be a "friend" only. no more others.

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my real friends wont do that. they will be happy for me not jealous over me.
they will want everything best of me, not take the best out of me.
true friends do that right?

i think i'm still happy alone.