moii style

The last working days of rabbit year!

2012-01-19T07:23:00.001-08:00

This year haven been good. Yet disappointment come regularly. I have seen alot and with so much fear and pain, i dunno how long can i take it.
I do smiled at times, telling myself everything will be alright for me, everything will be fine.

Its just the people, the changes the hardships that i have suffered silently making ppl think tt i am strong enough to overcome all these.
Yes, i have good frens to support me thru all these times, i dun wan them to worry about me.

I am always tt bubbly one, to show the that i cared too. They are the ones who show appreciation to me, support me.
But its still didnt go on well.
People just cross over the line, getting more and more overboard, the workload is too much too handle, too much to cope.
Why didnt u guys see what they have become, why m i/us always to suffer and take that blame jus becos we r being nice. That is the reason why we are being pushed.
Even our basic needs are taken over.
What is going on?
What happen?

Everyday, i came to the fear of all of you. The fear that makes me so unhappy, so lonely, so helpless.
But i still have to smile for it to get over. U all have no idea how i have been thru, no idea how this is so much for us, mentally and physical torturing us. I just wish for the strength to overcome them, the hope for things to get better.

May the God bless us.

Xmas

2011-12-26T04:49:00.001-08:00

Xmas xmas xmas is over!! The joyous season of all and the long awaited new year is coming..

This xmas have been busy busy and more busy.. Not about the gifts that i bought, cos its so last min and i haven got the time to buy. I promise next year will be better alright!! Sorry people..

4th year of xmas celebration with hubby, the usual light-seeing.

Well, 2012 is coming.. Time for the real planning for the wedding!!
Jus decide on my actual day gown and the night gown! So many pretty ones but i jus settled on these two! Wait till u guys see it =))

Baby Darlynn~

2011-12-12T17:31:00.001-08:00

Here comes baby Darlynn ytd night..
She marks the third child of Jo.. Somehow, i envy and worried about her.. Taking care of 3 children is such a chore man.. And i wonder how i can manage in the future.

Althou i would love to have one now but the time is jus not right yet. We still have so much to do and our flat isnt ready.. How to?!?

Let nature take course bah...

Here's baby Darlynn 1st photo.. Cos he still so soundly asleep and we do not wish to wake her up..

Phuket

2011-11-13T22:02:00.001-08:00

I am back from Phuket....
This first trip with my frens (xl and ch) plus husband was totally tiring and all..

The first day wasnt much except that we went to look ard nearby and then watching the simon show was kinda amusing to me, but we sat a lil too far from the stage and i hardly able to see their face actually. Sad! Plus its raining on and off .. At night, we went to see this thai girls show where that bottle of beer cost us 800baht (sgd32+) jus for the show! Wont ever one to watch it again btw..

Second day **
The first time i went island hopping on a speedboat! Feel like dying inside there plus the rocking and the journey is like freaking long from one island to another. With some bunch of french tourists and the trip totally drain my energy. Also my first time to jump into the sea from a boat, totally awesome kinda of feeling !! It jus feels so funny and then having to swin back to the boat and all.. Also relaxing on the beach ~ and there are some fishes swimming ard the water but too fast to catch them. Finally able to see sea water that are clearer than sg ones..
After that whole journey of island hopping, we rush back to the hotel and have only 40 mins to prepare for the next show at Fantasea.
This could be the most boring show ever and cost so much. Totally not worth the money man!

Only bad thing is the stuffs at Phuket are way way overpriced even for their massage.i hardly bought any things for myself cos the money is real tight for me. Most of their packages are super exp kind and we only manage to have one package.

2011-11-06T00:24:00.001-07:00

Happy birthday to all the november's babies!! Including my bro as well!

Mostly there are lotsa bdays celebrations near to the end of the year and this year is special as two of them turn 21st!!

That is my cousin and DD !
Times flies and then finally they reach the stage of being an adult!

CongratZ!!

Love happy occasions like that ~

2011-10-23T05:36:00.001-07:00

Never gonna understand what she wants, what she needs but we have already tried out very best.
No matter how we tried, its still the same.

Why she doesnt feel the care or concern from us.
Becos we are to distance to understand ?

Dunno what else can we do now.

2011-10-16T06:34:00.001-07:00

It hard to let u go, is hard to watch u leave. Isnt that love? The love that they had. Its a pity althou there's still so much to go thru. As much as i wish them to be happily ever after.

On a side note, dun go bother what others had say. Ask urself why u love him in the first place and what attracts u to him then. What is it when they cant be together when they r in love with each other.
If its meant to be, it will be.

The day when i become 'Mrs'

2011-09-15T08:28:00.001-07:00

Here it is, the day of my life when my status completely change and now i am 'married'. Well, not in the traditional way of married but in the eyes of the laws, we are husband and wife !

Life haven been much easier yet as the money is still flowing out so fast. And another part of the special day is the birth of my niece?!?! On the same day as i am.. 090911!!
I totally agreed it is a super nice date but jus thinking the way it clashes with my special date, its kinda 'duh' !
Not like i am unhappy about it cos she is part of my family now. And i will love her of cos!!
But if she turn 1, how can i possibly celebrate with her tgt w my bday and wedding anniversary.. I am not gg to snatch the limelight of this kid. So ya, i hope things will b much simplier next time.. T_T

Fyi. I still love my marriage life, it doesnt really change anything but we are working more harder towards our future!

the 2nd part

2011-09-05T09:56:00.001-07:00

Smiling to myself in the middle of the night, looking at ur lovely face and counting down to the days that we finally made it. That is, the day we move on to the 2nd phase of life. To the part that we now hold each other hands, walking down the streets thinking everything with 'us'. The day we said 'i do' and 'i will' . The day that our signatures are on the same piece of paper and our vows in our heart. The love that brings us together can never tear us apart. The man that God have given me. And jus to say i love you isnt doing much, we will prove it together with the rest of our lives. Dear God, thank you for bringing this man into my life.

the one

2011-08-18T20:17:00.001-07:00

She raised u guys up, provide u with education, clothes and finally marry u off and what she get in return is like a ball tossing here and there, jus like in the movie, a drama... Unfolding between u is another stretch of road, that leads u to a life which u have nv think of. Now that, what will she feels. Who knows, becos she nv voice out with the fear that u might abandon her. She will b the good and obedient child that u wants her to be with her partner long gone without her. I hope she is well with the first 4 months with us. And my bro who sacrifice to sleep on the floor for 4months.

2011-07-29T07:56:00.000-07:00

i have gotten my flat !
despite soo much that i hate waiting, for this... there isnt a choice..

here's my future home !!!!!

Tampines Greenleaf =D

i took the 12th floor..

Postal code is so nice 523523....

Althou it's kinda far from the interchange but at least this is what we got..

Now, back to waiting for it to be ready !

2014 !!

2011-07-24T07:06:00.000-07:00

in 4 more days, i shall be able to choose my dream house and most imptly our home.
life have been great so far with so many things happening..

my first company DND is a blast, really enjoyed myself so much esp to have more stonger bonds btw us.
not just about work but fun as well. =D

my boss.

lovely peeps ~

and my lovely 'shelliemay' gotten her first clothings with the help of my co who went holiday-ing with his gf ..
grateful that he is able to buy back for me althou it cost me a small little bomb..
those small little money worth much more to me.

the most impt thing, is that we finally decide on our wedding. have been going to some hotels, so far we have shortlisted some which is within our budget.

2012 ! a dragon year.

planning in progress ~

=D

money again

2011-07-10T05:46:00.001-07:00

Even how much i tell myself not to quarrel over money, it is jus not working.Marriage is a chore, and the main thing is that it need the evil ingredient called MONEY! As much as i wanted to settle everything asap.. For now, i will jus go slow and save up enough so that bf wont feel the heavy burden.Intended to hold the wedding next year but i will jus postpone it to 2013.. Well, at least i stil have another year to save up and slim down..Jia you!!!

2011-07-05T08:13:00.000-07:00

in another 23 days, i will b able to choose our dream home, our future will lies in the decision we made.
preparation of our marriage came in just in time..

just sign up a package with the bridal shop and i can scrape off the idea of gg to taiwan to have our photoshoot cos i think is out of our budget.

money money and still money ...

another prob of mine is my face..
no idea why i am having this infection on my face and it is sooo damn itchy.
awaiting to see the doc this sat..

pls let my face recover and be a pretty bride in time.

wedding date is still currently planning cos there might b soo many clashes if the date is not chosen properly.

...
...
.....
.........
..............

money kills

2011-06-12T09:02:00.001-07:00

I always always know that money is an evil thing. No matter wad it helps me to achieve, it can kills them too. And i didnt realise that preparing a marriage and setting up a family can b such a chore. Neither did i know that it hav been slowly killing my relationship with u.In the past, i always treat it like it always happen like this, like that.. I didnt know u hav been suffering becos of me thinking that way. Alot of things with i didnt know until u finally burst out to me this fine day. Little did i know that it hurts me soo much , that i feel that our love isnt that strong enough to overcome. I was stupid to think that i wanted to give up after such a long way we hav gone thru.. I shldnt have think that way. Wad i shld do, is to solve the problem. But, so what if i hav solve it now..Will anyone promise me that it wont happen again.? Will i never ever get to enjoy my life in my way?? There are so many Whys! I will find the answer to them as i proceed with my life. Now, the devils.. I hope u will leave me alone. I dun need u , i dun wan u...Everything God have given me will not b taken away by u! Our life is jus turning out to be smooth, i dun need another stir from u.

2011-06-07T08:50:00.000-07:00

Day 5 & 6 is ALL ABOUT DISNEY TOKYO: LAND VS SEA

All i can say is they are soooo sooo much better than Hongkong ones.
but i will prefer Disneysea to land cos Disneyland are full of kids & the attractions are mainly entertaining kids more to those of adults..

And only DisneySea have DUFFY & SHELLIEMAY !!!!

i know i know, many ppl ask me who are they!!!

well, at Disneysea, the creators of them goes like this:

Mickey is going for a sea trip and so Minnie made him a bear for him to bring along.

This bear is Duffy.

As u can see, the bear's face is shaped of Mickey,even the paws are shaped like Mickey ..

That's the affection of Minnie to Mickey..

So, after dunno how long, Shelliemay came out.

Minnie made a Duffy a partner as she is afraid that Duffy is lonely..

That's how it came about this two bears.

They are called the bear of Happiness And Luck ....

Almost everybody traveling to Disneysea are carrying at least 1 around ..

so i bought them too =X

they even dressed them (as in the bears) up too ! lots of costumes & some limited edition -.-

i regretted not buying one of them..

That is the unique part of Disneysea..

anyway, all the rides and show are in Jap , i cant really understand wad they are saying too.

but all the shows are all fantantic !

It's a whole new experience for us ... i would totally love to go back again <3

2011-05-26T08:38:00.000-07:00

i am back for DAY 3 !

where did i go ?
Toyko Station - Ginza - Odaiba

Tokyo station is already enough for us to walk like few hours and i went back to Ginza to shop for my burberry bluelabel & Agnes B bag.. I got it ! their tax refund is superb cos we got cashback right away and the service is soo damn nice ...

love the pink ! <3

And my boots chose to spoil at this day thus, we went back to hotel to change my shoes .
we went to Odaiba after that. super romantic place but super windy and cold !
it called rainbow bridge or something ...
anyway, that the place bf bought the tamagotchi for me ! cos it is cheaper than the town selling price bout 2000yen .. which is ard SGD30.00..

i dun mind being a kid to play this.. cos it is way much fun than those old,boring kind..

it can hav lunch at a restaurant,go to a park to meet frens, buying furniture and wallpapers..

all sort of things ! even giving birth to a new tamagotchi and u will raise the 2nd generation and so on.

some it is in colour & operate with AAA batteries ! hehehehehe .. =D

well, a fruitful day for me ..

DAY 4

Tsukiji Fish Market - Shinjuku - Ikebukuro

We wanted to get up early for the fish market but then we overslept..

Didnt get to see the auction and all..

we have our lunch over there at a random stall as i couldnt find the store my co tell me.. =(

their tamago is super sweet and yummy !

shopping and shopping and walking and walking after that .....

day 4 ended very fast ...

2011-05-22T08:33:00.000-07:00

Days in Japan.... ....

It is a long awaited trip for me. My dream come true, my precious memories !

Day 1 - Ueno
Firstly, after we touch down at the airport, we went to book the narita express train bound for Tokyo.
An hour later, we reach Tokyo and it is an nightmare. WHY ? becos the train lines are so confusing and it took us so long to finally figure out which line shld we take. Plus the luggages is also a burden to us, i cant find the lifts and most of them are stairs *long stairs* .. their trains are soooo underground and it can be like few stories down.

see ! i told u we can b lost for hours trying to figure out where to go.

the hotel is like a little kinda far from the station so we hav a hard time walking and finding it.

my first meal there .. i have no idea wad meat is it cos it is all in Jap .. i guess it's pork ba..

have a walk around Ueno and then back to hotel to have our super early rest.

i think we slept ard 8pm(sg time)..

AND their sunrise is like 5am (which is 4am sg time) !

i woke up thinking that i muz b late alrdy and then see the timing on my hp.

Day 2 - Shopping Time.

Start off with a breakfast at Mac, have a diff time communicating with the staffs becos they dun speak english lah ! even thou some hav english menu but they dun understand wad we want. =(

but their quality is superb compare to sg ones. prices are of cos on the higher side even fast food !

we ordered wrongly.. this is a salad burger -.-

To Meiji Shrine - Harajuku - Shibuya - Shimbashi - Ginza

A little here and there, but they close really early ard 8pm (sg time).

Ginza is full of branded shops !!! but i reach there almost all the shops are closing soon.

there is a whole bldg of Tiffany & Co.

at Ueno side is like very quiet alrdy.

i spend my money very wisely there cos their meals are so exp.! i rather eat less buy more. =P

End of DAY 2 ... ...

japan

2011-05-19T19:05:00.001-07:00

I m blogging from Japan.... !! Jus to test the wifi here lah.. I will blog when i m back in sg !! I miss the food in sg !! Bye Japan in few more hours .....

tired

2011-05-04T22:37:00.001-07:00

So much of a working colleague...... I dun understand how can a person be so inconsiderate and so mean to others. We are working as a team and u know how much it affect when one is down.. But u chose the day that we needed extra hard to drop a bomb on us.I totally depress when i always fear every morning, i step into the office and hear things.. Althou u hav ur reason for doing so, but the repeating of these, made me question as well as disappointing.. Well, seriously.. U r tired, i m tired too. Who isnt tired for god sake.. Everybody ARE tired... U r not the only person who work hard.. We worked too! ... ...

the life

2011-04-30T20:57:00.001-07:00

That meaningless path that we all went thru before until u hav met the one that u hav been searching for ..Thanks god that mine came by and people are happy for me. Thanks for the blessing that all of u hav given me .. It made me feel so good and for accepting him as mine.Well, it is the time for me to settle down, for love life. But career and other stuffs is still hanging on...I didnt know that money became an issue for all of us in the later part of life.. It is so impt that if we dun hav, things wont go smoothly as plan.. I am not spending his money on branded goods or even expensive meals, we are saving for the future, for creating our perfect home and life. But many couldnt understand the importance of it. And i couldnt made them understand, overall, they are not spending my money and i hav no control over them.Ur bf/husband earns alot, but that doesnt mean u expect more things from them. If u decided to spend ur rest of ur life with him, the money will b urs eventually and it will b affecting ur future life as well. So why do that?

2011-04-17T06:52:00.000-07:00

14042011

the day i said 'yes' , anw, my replies were 'ok lo' ... i think..

well, bf proposed to me while we were admiring the sunset.. it can b so romantic but i think both of us were too shy to do anything or say anything special..
it came automatically... like that..

*shys*
but happy of cos..

i am going to get married !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SOOOONNNNNN~

49days

2011-04-10T11:26:00.001-07:00

Time passes so fast.. You hav gone for more than a month.. Today is the 49th day, u will return and see us right.. Mom misses u , grandpa.. I miss u too..Although our time spent tgt wasnt tt much, i do love u too..My love is unable to express out cos i dunno how to.. I admit i didnt made an effort to, but still.. Sorry.I will improve.

2011-04-06T07:54:00.000-07:00

my special wedding band !!

next up..

event venue for my ROM...

nothing beat discussing our future together ..

2011-03-20T08:21:00.000-07:00

my Japan trip in the coming May is sooo unstable now.. but i still want to go, not to fight for their food, their electricity but i want the experience in Japan even i know that it will not be as much as wonderful compare to them without earthquake.. i have been watching news every now and them hoping that they will stay strong and overcome this asap..

MONEY MONEY MONEY is another key to everything !!
and i now know the imptance of it..
NEEDED TO BUY HOUSE
NEEDED FOR WEDDING PREPARATIONS

WANTED FOR FACIAL AND TREATMENT OF MY EYECIRCLES !!
WANTED TO GET PRETTIER EACH DAY BEFORE MY WEDDING !!

everything is about MONEY !

and unfortunately, the dec project ffor my bto, selection is on 31st march but the units left is only 80, which mostly is 5th floor and below.. really feel like jumping down !!

fuC***** MBT keep saying there is enough for everybody and the housing prices keep rising .. !
u got money i no money k!

2011-03-09T07:46:00.000-08:00

my blog is soooo dead.... ....

oh well, so many things happen just a mere 3months..
attend many "white"events which also include my grandfather..

well, ever since 2011 step in, there isnt much happy moments for me.
the day before and yesterday, one of the part timer's father and my colleague's brother pass on as well.
seriously... i dunno what happen to 2011..

>_<

on the brighter side.
i finally have the chance to go USS ! weee ....
i have already know that there's a wet ride and i m REALLY WET ...
i think it is becos i am sitting w WZ and the angmo, they are on the heavier side !!

let the pics do the talking then...

i always love castle.. becos it is fairytale !

back to a child.

see how wet i am &&& how dry is he !!! he is just sitting opposite of me =(

most awesome ride ever !!! dun try it if u have a weak heart..

cos it makes ur heart really beat faster !!

well, of cos bf didnt sit with me cos he is scared.. =/

but i dun regret sitting it !

he is actually quite handsome, but i cannot zoom in..

anw, wait till i get the rest upload onto FB...

ta-duh ! finally updated !!!

22Feb2011

2011-02-22T10:53:00.001-08:00

Today, is the day i return from my bkk trip, and it is also a day that i lost someone dear to me. It is a pity tt i didnt manage to rush down in time. U were gone. But i hope u know that i came down. U didnt manage to see me, i am so sorry. When i landed, i shld hav come immediately.. But i am still late. I tot i still hv the time, but u were gone so fast i didnt manage to say goodbye..I m sorry, grandpa.. Please give strength to grandma and mum to go thru this hard time.. My heart hurts to see them in such a pain that i m unable to help, to comfort as there is nth i can do.Goodbye Grandpa. U know that u will b missed. U know that we all loved u soo much.Rest in peace and be well. 22feb2011 1831hrs

2011-01-28T21:43:00.000-08:00

for the brighter side ...
PLEASE SEE MY HAMMYS... DAMN KE AI de lahs....

they sleep like a cutie, drink like a giant and eat like a monster..
they are always fighting, i dunno for what ! sleeping each a corner =(
i tot they will get along since they are from the same mother (that what the person told me) ...
the best part, they haven bite me YET .. *cross fingers*

i am still afraid to hug them, i just let them on my hand and walk around..

and i am seriously allegy to some of the beddings.. so bf promise that he will change the bedding for me once i feel it smells.. and he even buy me an air purifer to clean up my room's air.. =)

<3 <3 <3

a few days ago, i decide dye my hair again .. RED it is.. Huat Ah!!

dun need to mention that bang is also something new to me..... -.-
anyway, it makes me so damn irritated the next day and it auto become side bangs again ... =X

there isnt much cny mood this year, but i still want to do something for myself..
so i make an appt at Millys for my eyelashes on Sunday !! hehehehe... it will be so great !

2011-01-28T21:09:00.000-08:00

time and time again and again i got so much disappointment..
is this what the gov is trying to do? give birth then i give u a house? no kids no house?
tried for the 5th time and the result is just .... ....
seriously, they keep saying that we hav a choice to buy resale flat when the COV is drop, go find out urself la.. ur pay is so much higher than mine, of cos can afford right !! wtf .. if i got money to pay COV, u think i want your small and miserable BTO ??? i got no choice ok !
giving us the reason that isnt really a reason .. STOP THAT ..
not going to trust that the gov is doing us good ! u are welcoming all the "FOREIGN TALENTS" , allowing them to stay and build a home.. what about our own people ?

so disappointed..

2011-01-16T09:44:00.000-08:00

i want to adopt a hamster !
i miss all my previous ones...
T_T

2011-01-11T07:16:00.000-08:00

can i say something ..
my godson , dominic che yong jun .. i think it spells like that.. anyway..
he's a cutie..
but his 'grandmother' wasnt that friendly la.. keep a lookout whenever ppl are near to her grandson..
HELLO, i will nv drop ur grandson k...
and pls show some care n concern to the one who give birth to it..

Zzz
cant really voice out how much unhappiness i have about all these selfish aunties.. i know that it is not only her.. still got a bunch outside which have this kind of thinking..

ok, pls see this cutie...:::::

so damn happy for jo, and i wish her life is more happier than past !

Best Wishes =P

2011-01-01T01:56:00.000-08:00

TODAY is the first day of 2011 ...
HAPPY NEW YEAR to each and everyone of you guys out there...

i dunno what i am feeling now, but i throw all the unhappiness back in 2010, only the good ones stay with me till forever..
within one year, so much have happen.. so much have changed.

well, i am going to start my 2011 without these. i will put it behind and look forward to my future.
whatever it holds, i am going to be strong and overcome all .

JIA YOU NYQ..
same to all of u..

2010-12-21T23:21:00.000-08:00

it is going to be the end of 2010 ...
in the coming of 2011, my life still hasnt get any better..

i m nothing..

my job is tiring me out, making my life so general... there's nothing special about my life and i cant do anything about it... -.-

i am so emo now ...

BUT...
there is always happy memories that have been created ..

the lovely day i spend with bf on his birthday and the time with my friends.. =)

the MBS trip .... i would really love it if their service wasnt so bad.. but anyway, cant complain...

the swimming pool is really nice.. plus the view... is epic =)

the steamboat w my fav meatballs & ktv after that .. much loves ...

still have ..

wonderful bday celebration w bf...

i think i will upload the photos later on tgt with otherss..

im tired already..

2010-11-21T07:24:00.001-08:00

i wanna change my blogskin and everything..
cos i realise i am not 21 anymore.. although in my heart, i will always be that 21...
well, truth really hurts right.. i m just being honest in my blog.. T_T

and YES, i am still busy..
hm.. dec schedule is roughly out now..
3rd - most probably will b singing K with C and others.
4th - helping my sis to move house

SUNDAYS are meant for recharging ..

WEEKDAYS are meant are earning money = working

10th - shld be K again with C (if she is FREE) & A
11th - company event * max sian.. i wish i wont have to attend but sadly, i am one of the organiser (that explain why i am soo busy as well)

17th - NOT AVAILABLE as it is bf birthday !!!! (super looking for it)
18th - attending wedding (again!!)

24th - THAT IS XMAS EVE already !!!!!!!!
25th - XMAS TIME ... i hope i have no programs cos i hate the crowds.. but, we'll see.

that pratically sums up all.. so i am really BUSY ...

2010-11-21T07:24:00.000-08:00

recently activities ...
including slacking & prata w A n WS... it been so long since we are back at the prata shop again.
the drinks we drank is the same just that i ordered Chix Mutubak...

continueing with Jo bday celebrate after that in one day advance...@ big eater..

my fav cereals prawnsss !!!

it is just a short dinner cos i am not available to celebrate w her on her actual bday..

next event explains why .....

JP MORGAN PROUDLY PRESENTS ... ....

*faints*

the unexpected is that my seats is quite in front.. 4th rows from the front.. Zzz

wanted to celebrate with my bro after this but is cancelled , so me n bf went home to rest..

because i have chest pain for that whole day..

-.-

2010-11-17T08:01:00.000-08:00

my my, i am so damn busy...
neglected alot of stuffs including my frens and blog and my precious games on my iphone...

well, start of nov..
few birthdays, weddings to attend.. is super shag and somehow drain most of my energy ..

but all of these are precious memories to me.
=)

clubbing with bf for the first time .. SHIOK **
not that high becos the music is weird ... =/

my great grandma pass away that week as well, i am unable to attend due to the wedding i am attending
unable to send her thru her last journey is a disappointment, but i am glad that i went to visit her during CNY this year.

next, it will be the super shag wedding that burns my SAT & SUN .... ....

it bf bro 's wedding.
sat to fetch the bride.. sun is their wedding lunch..

well, really angry when the "sisters" keep saying that the "brothers" are useless/old/ blah blah.. which is kinda of rude and very unfriendly of them to use these terms.. there's one brother in his forties and saying these kinda of stuffs is very sensitive and shameful..
of cos, i dun like ppl saying my bf is useless either.. so i dislike them right away .. humph..
the bride house is damn far from tamp and the trip to n fro is another tiring one.
after that ceremony, bf still have to send them home to pack their stuffs to the hotel TWICE and we ended up home just nice MIDNIGHT..
slept for a few hours and wake up early to go to the hotel and prepare..
SUPER SHAG..
lunch ended around 3 plus and we reach home ard 5 , enough for a short nap .. =)

coming this week ::
Wedding (AGAIN)
Birthdays (AGAIN)

updating soooon..

2010-11-07T07:52:00.000-08:00

aww.. today went to sis's new home !!
it suddenly feels soo good to have a home of ur own . and i am so looking forward to our home..
slowly working toward that goal, and prays that our next ballot will be successful =D
i cant wait to decorate my house n spend the lovely time together at home .. hmm, seems nice..

sum up this week events, it just buying of presents and going to celebrate with them ..
my friends are all growing up and sad to sad, my bro is turning 21 this coming 17th!! god, time really passes so fast.. well, i hope everything is going well for him ..
it feels that time is nv enough and it keep going on so fast that i haven have the time to stop and see what is going on with my life..
there's so much going on and i kept wondering why i didnt think of my future..

now that i am so lost , i dunno what to do..
ARGHHHS ..
i always wanting to avoid this topic and now i am lost.
but i still dun want to touch on that until i found some way..

soo byee !!

2010-11-05T09:17:00.000-07:00

oh, so many things happen this week ? so many kinds of bad news and the one that i have been most KPO about , of cos was the one that happen at DTE..
well, it kinda sad to hav one person died in that incident and afterall, the paying price was kinda high and really pity their family when they have brought up their sons for so many years and getting this end result.

anw..
enough of the news stuffs, i am having super busy weekends for this month..
i dun even know when is my free period.. and money is running out but with all these weddings coming on..
i'm soooooo dead !!!

HELPP ME

2010-10-31T08:52:00.000-07:00

the super small size tv which "auto-off" in the middle of the night..

CREEPYYYY~ it is the night that we watch "child's eye" ... AND our window opened themselves..

anw. i am too tired to even wake up in the middle of the night when these happen so we just take it that

the wind is too STRONG (we stayed on the 4th floor), and the TV hav some sort of timer.. -.-

i love my mum !

okay, here is my winning !! minus off the MYR100 that i forked out, i won MYR260..

but i ended up losing MYR100 again tt night so total i won MYR160..

BUT.... i bought my parents and myself each a pendant which cost MYR30 each..

sooo, it doesnt look like i am winning..

& my dad lose it after 1 week .. =(

didnt tried this thou but it look super fun.. COOKING MAMA on a machine..

2010-10-28T08:04:00.000-07:00

there is only 500 units but the number we took is 900 , so what is that mere little chance here?
a hoping of 600 ppls to opt out , is there that possibility?

more and more disappointments, i dunno what to look forward to anymore..
what is that govt doing ... ... building us more flats that we are unable to afford and unable to even have a chance to choose..

singapore is now flooding with the so-called "foreign talents" and now, there isnt even a place for us to stay in
-.-

2010-10-24T00:41:00.000-07:00

i wanted to update my genting trip. but so many things happen that doesnt feel good.
anw, it wasnt that bad if the check in having me to wait like 3hrs plus and the pizza hut service and also the creepy stuffs i feel in the hotel..

mayb i will update when i feel more happier ..

A: be strong, i'm so sorry to heard that.. take cares.

prays

2010-10-23T09:38:00.001-07:00

I pray , i wish, i want my grandfather to be well.. Recover and stay alive , pls..

2010-10-13T07:52:00.000-07:00

leaving for genting in one more day !!
so excited.. it been so long since i go holiday with my parents.. althou my sis n bro are not going..
i'm going to go casino for the first time and i wish i have some first-timer's luck !!

anw, it glad that mom is able to go with us..
=)

love mum

2010-10-11T08:16:00.001-07:00

She have gone thru alot and i dun understand why muz one force her to this extent , cant her family treat her tt well that u muz put a stop to it? Does that she could nv enjoy her life lile she used to be. How long can this happiness last when u were to take it away from her. Yes, she may be smiling but i know she is super upset. Her case hav bring her much difficulties in her life and who in one life wish this to happen. It is all bout protecting one another. She bear it in her name, that is brave of her. Wont u do the same too?Now why cant u jus let her off for a few days jus to make her happy. What is wrong when i am the one paying for the trip. I earn my money and giv my money to let her enjoy life, is that so wrong as a daughter that u muz reject ! And what with all those commercials bout impt of family !! Back to a softer side, i wish u will grant us that one permission . *prays*

2010-10-10T09:08:00.000-07:00

the quarrels we had, the love we got .

dear love,
thanks for visiting me once again.
i have felt for it and cherish u once again.
i will be good and i will care, i will make him smile again.
i will let him know that you have visited him as well.

now love, please help me send ur love to those in need, let them feel you once again.
let them have a smile on their face and stay with them whenever they need.
let your love be their strength to carry what they have to bear.
please make them strong to continue their life filled with the love u gave and the happiness in it..

to all my friends:
i wish that LOVE is there for you.

C - pray that ur grandma will be fine, hope that you are coping well with ur studies and everything is well.
A - hope that u will find that "one" and be blessed ~
E - stay happy, u have grown up and u know what u are doing, may everything be well for you.

2010-10-05T07:30:00.000-07:00

why does the guys dun always admit their mistakes?
why does the guys always think that the prob is small and we are making a big fuss out if it?
why does the guys always have the right to chose not to care and dun even feel anything at all?
why does the guys dun even want to say "sorry" to make things better?

why is it so hard to open ur mouth and apologise what u have said and bear the responsibilities?
why ? why ? why?

money!!

2010-10-03T11:43:00.001-07:00

Money is the killer of everything. It kills family ties, friendship and anything nice..This is not uncommon among us. Actually, it is right in front of us where there is no denial not hidden but unable to control..I saw it in everything but there is no stop for it.. I m helpless when it comes to this.What can i do? Nothing. Except to listen n see .. Such a disappointment ! To u n you ! Friends is just for saying and is not even true at all.Not fit to called as a friend..And u, stop dragging ur family with u.With no repents, u can jolly well b left alone..

2010-10-02T00:21:00.000-07:00

If u have the ever gulity-mind, i think i would nv detest u as much as that..
If u would really stand in ones' shoes and think hard about what u are doing whether it is right or wrong,
i guess i wont dislike u that much.
If u have the cheek to even ask one that u let down to come back to your side, i guess i would hate u that much.
If you think that i am at fault, or done something that shouldnt be doing, u being my friend, is welcome to have a nice talk with me.. I can at least know what i have done instead of keeping it quiet..
that is what friends are for instead of letting others talking bout me..

what is the point to the friendship with betrayal, mistrust and ungrateful ... there is no need for a friend like that. there is no place in my life for a person like that.

this is getting more and more disppointing each single day, each single moment..
memories were there but u were not here anymore.

the end.

2010-09-24T19:56:00.000-07:00

such a disappointing weekend i have..
fri - no ktv cos i am still sick
sat - not going to colleague hse for hari raya cos i am sick, not going for family dinner cos of F1...
sun - wanted to go Ikea for meatball PLUS fries but i dun think i can recover by then...

SAD SAD SAD ......
it all ruin by sore throat started on tue, headache started on wed, cough & fever started on thur... it nv get any better !!
& i totally know the reason why i got that fever ..
i was drenched in the sudden rain that thus lunch break... T_T
colleagues alrdy know i shld be getting MC but keep asking me to come back work cos there are 3 ppl on leave.. im so sorry...

anw, i sleep throughout my fri ... dinner is only french toast becos i cant ever think of what to eat or what i can eat... even mac doesnt attract me anymore..

*************************************

well, i really wanted to post some photos up cos my blog look so dull.

now that i got the time.. here goes :::

meet up with my girlss.. they are the best even thou we didnt meet up often..

they dote me like little sister.. =)

these are continued from the USS.. photos are from ver's camera

nice mash potato but it cost $6+ for this small portion...

super damn big the NACHOS.. but i find it so-so only cos i dun like the cheese to be harden tt kind..

i like those which we can dip into.. but this is not.. & it cost $18+

BLIC cafe.. we just decided to go eat after dinner at 802.. yummy yummy ice cream but didnt have my fav that time thou.. & YW just happen to bring camera so we SNAP , SNAP, SNAP...

realise i didnt have make up on that day .. T_T

2010-09-23T19:35:00.000-07:00

Special Post FOR BDAY!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CALENE !!!!!

wish U , many many luck & studies UP UP UP !!!
u got lotsa good frens around u & i wish all the friendship will stay long & true for yoU!
<3 <3 <3

all my surrounding frens are turning 22 !! althou the number is not that big but still, it makes an impact on me..
i dun want the time to go that fast, i want it to be slow so that i can slowly see things at my own pace..
many things around me , i seen and felt..
nothing have ever made me that disappointed before..
this yr have been bad, terrible on certain things but i have gain alot as well.
i see frens as who they are, what they are..
i appreciate that..
well, what i hope for was things to be better.. in the future... ...

first MC on the new job.. i hope it doesnt affect my performance..
i really bo bian have to take MC cos i dun feel that well and i cant concentrate on my work.
so , really sorry for the colleagues that will be fighting on behalf of me..

2010-09-19T08:51:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday TO MR NEW...

great catching up with u too !!
so much happen and so much of different life.. i still prefer working life with the income i needed..
hahahaha.. anyway, u just have to study hard !!
hope ur frens will not blow up those unglam things.. =P

may everything goes well with you !!
best wishes

=D

2010-09-17T21:52:00.001-07:00

all about C

that u larh .. CALENE!!!
i realise i totally forget u still can update ur blog and i finally went in to see..
lols..

ok, bout the des part, he like nv ask me to tell him when u are coming back leh.. *thinking*
he only ask me to call him when we are going out ma... Zzz
but ok la, i will ask him out when u are free for meetup ok.
or mayb can just go ur hse downstair for a dinner or what so i can apologise to him ..

=DD

anw, u have great friends la, but still need to manage ur time lo.. dun always msn till late night !..
muahaha.. that is unhealthy ... !

2010-09-14T08:14:00.000-07:00

i am asking for something that simple.
but chances are not given to me..

i feel so terrible.
i feel so confused.
there is isnt one day i feel good.
everytime i looked at the photos, it is such a regret...
how things become this way, is not what i wanted.
it is just beyond my control anymore.
i just hope time will settle everything down.

**********************************

it is such a busy month for me.
there is just so many sep babies..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO::
my sister , ME, alan, shixiang , denise, calene , wan ting........
did i miss out anyone? hope not.
well... i hope u guys can be happy always .... n successful in whatever u do...

**************************************

2010-09-07T06:51:00.000-07:00

surprises surprises !!
i love surprisess....
firstly, just 1 week before my birthday .... ....

he called my mom, asking her to wait for at home so he came n put in on my bed..

after that, he waited till he can send me home from work .. *cheeky*

second early bday.. 04.09.10

small mini celebration organised by verlyn...

another surprise ...

it was supposed to be a SIMPLE LUNCH/DINNER..

but end up i have to stand up on a chair and everyone in the restaurant is singing for me..

totally embarrassed to the MAX...

i was shaking when i come down.... >_<

love the frame & my toner...!! thank you guys... =DDDDD

meeting ger & jo on my actual bday ..

=))))))

my life is wonderfull....

2010-08-27T22:08:00.000-07:00

i had an awesome night ytd with a simple meet-up of ktv !!
this had been drag here n there, until we finally meet up ytd ...
althou it was super weird at first when the stupid A haven come#($*)#%&$(%..
me n E was talking non stop n left out WS.. so sorry bout it .. hahas..

well, we are gals, what do u expect..?? & we haven meet up for soo long and there are alot of stuffs to be clarified..
at least i get to hear both stories & i of cos know who to trust now.
i'm totally dumb i think..
to think that we cant judge a book by it's cover , is totally true..
anw, is glad that we can clear off some misunderstandings.. =D

that is a totally good thing to know..
& u happy now, so who cares !!!

hmm... ...

what can i say...
ppl changes every time.
whether good or worst , u , urself made all that happen ...
it doesnt matter how ppl thinks if what u do is right, but there's no need to go all over explaining urself.
this is how things work.
if i have done nothing wrong, why is there a need to explain urself right?
and if u doesnt explain, misunderstanding builds..
actions DOES speak louder than words..
all past is past..
dun wish to care either since it is like super long ago....
.

2010-08-25T08:07:00.000-07:00

dreams scattered.
future is unclear
nothing is clear to me right now..
i dunno how to start, no idea when to stop..
i wish i can study, but with my current job, is a NO for me.
but this job keeps me so busy that i have no idea the time passes so quickly..
in that way, i will not think too much, that is a good thing to me..
but for my future, i am unsure,unclear and super blur.. i cant see well..

who can tell me how should i go.

2010-08-22T07:35:00.000-07:00

pple..
i am warning you if you ever going to bkk again , near the 4 face buddha.. there's this short short guy who claim that he is a lawyer and will be asking ppl to go to somewhere to pray.. he often give u excuses like it is the buddha bday or wad celebration which only happen once a month and u are so lucky that u are here this day blah blah~~~
he will even call a tuk-tuk over and ask them to fetch u there..
after that, the tuk-tuk will bring u over to jewellery shop/diamond shop to "take a look"..
there is no harm done lah, but it is just irritating to find ppl like tt..
wasting our time to do what u wants us to do.. as if we have money to buy that kind of stuffs also..
well, i met this guy once and he keep insisting us to get on to the tuk-tuk..
when we refused saying i want to go shopping, he still can give me a stupid excuse saying there's a sale after 4pm and i can go the that place and head to shopping in time.. -_-
full of shit i muz say..
anyway.. when i came back and meet up with belle.. i told her bout this incident and she happen to meet the same guy also.. but she kanna con over there..
her friends also kanna twice and they even take the photo of this guy..
haha.. i didnt have the photo, just beware of these stuffs happening in bangkok..

ok.. more bangkok photos are up on fb ..
so here are a few.. ... ...

super big de room... Zzz

day 1 - lootss

day 2 - loots

day 3 - last min shopping..

steamy-inng.. will never forget the meatball plus their chilli..

YUMS.. is MK restaurant..

this outlet is at MBK...

we had fruits buffet too..

super sweet de mangosteens..

2010-08-17T08:27:00.000-07:00

im back from bkk..
super tired cause i cant take leave so i went right back to work after my holiday!!
despite that, i still need to work overtime & i am super de busy one..
why so many ppl remit money la..
cannot use bank transfer meh.. -.-

shall blog about my trip again..
=DD
buy alot of BAGS, Dresses && slippers.... ....

tml will be going to pick up C!!!!
WELCOME BACK TO SG !!!
i know u will miss ur new friends !! but we miss you too !!!

TO A :: u want weekend or weekday?? weekdays i very hard to know the timing i finish work leh..

2010-08-11T09:25:00.001-07:00

super tired..
new work is progressing and there is still many to learn
totally shag but i m totally looking forward to my bkk trip !! in less than 1 day ...
after tml.. i will be sitting on a plane again.. this is totally a super short getaway cos i didnt even take leave on monday when i reach sg ard 12am..

=))

To A::

tat is becos my mum is not around !!
lols.. ok la.. of cos can.. but i finish work at 730pm sometimes may have OT.. if want muz faster before i learn all the stuffs and they dun let me off early lo..

2010-08-08T01:49:00.000-07:00

hmm, read something sad about..
ABORTION .. it is nothing big about but there are friends around who do that..
i cant judge them but this is sad ::

Hi, Mommy. I'm your baby. You don't know me yet, I'm only a few weeks old. You're going to find out about me soon, though, I promise. Let me tell you some things about me. My name is John, and I've got beautiful brown eyes and black hair. Well, I don't have it yet, but I will when I'm born. I'm going to be your only child, and you'll call me your one and only. I'm going to grow up without a daddy mostly, but we have each other. We'll help each other, and love each other. I want to be a doctor when I grow up.

You found out about me today, Mommy! You were so excited, you couldn't wait to tell everyone. All you could do all day was smile, and life was perfect. You have a beautiful smile, Mommy. It will be the first face I will see in my life, and it will be the best thing I see in my life. I know it already.

Today was the day you told Daddy. You were so excited to tell him about me! ...He wasn't happy, Mommy. He kind of got angry. I don't think that you noticed, but he did. He started to talk about something called wedlock, and money, and bills, and stuff I don't think I understand yet. You were still happy, though, so it was okay. Then he did something scary, Mommy. He hit you. I could feel you fall backward, and your hands flying up to protect me. I was okay... but I was very sad for you. You were crying then, Mommy. That's a sound I don't like. It doesn't make me feel good. It made me cry, too. He said sorry after, and he hugged you again. You forgave him, Mommy, but I'm not sure if I do. It wasn't right. You say he loves you... why would he hurt you? I don't like it, Mommy.

Finally, you can see me! Your stomach is a little bit bigger, and you're so proud of me! You went out with your mommy to buy new clothes, and you were so so so happy. You sing to me, too. You have the most beautiful voice in the whole wide world. When you sing is when I'm happiest. And you talk to me, and I feel safe. So safe. You just wait and see, Mommy. When I am born I will be perfect just for you. I will make you proud, and I will love you with all of my heart.

I can move my hands and feet now, Mommy. I do it because you put your hands on your belly to feel me, and I giggle. You giggle, too. I love you, Mommy.

Daddy came to see you today, Mommy. I got really scared. He was acting funny and he wasn't talking right. He said he didn't want you. I don't know why, but that's what he said. And he hit you again. I got angry, Mommy. When I grow up I promise I won't let you get hurt! I promise to protect you. Daddy is bad. I don't care if you think that he is a good person, I think he's bad. But he hit you, and he said he didn't want us. He doesn't like me. Why doesn't he like me, Mommy?

You didn't talk to me tonight, Mommy. Is everything okay?

It's been three days since you saw Daddy. You haven't talked to me or touched me or anything since that. Don't you still love me, Mommy? I still love you. I think you feel sad. The only time I feel you is when you sleep. You sleep funny, kind of curled up on your side. And you hug me with your arms, and I feel safe and warm again. Why don't you do that when you're awake, any more?

I'm 21 weeks old today, Mommy. Aren't you proud of me? We're going somewhere today, and it's somewhere new. I'm excited. It looks like a hospital, too. I want to be a doctor when I grow up, Mommy. Did I tell you that? I hope you're as excited as I am. I can't wait.

...Mommy, I'm getting scared. Your heart is still beating, but I don't know what you are thinking. The doctor is talking to you. I think something's going to happen soon. I'm really, really, really scared, Mommy. Please tell me you love me. Then I will feel safe again. I love you!

Mommy, what are they doing to me!? It hurts! Please make them stop! It feels bad! Please, Mommy, please please help me! Make them stop!

Don't worry Mommy, I'm safe. I'm in heaven with the angels now. They told me what you did, and they said it's called an abortion.

Why, Mommy? Why did you do it? Don't you love me any more? Why did you get rid of me? I'm really, really, really sorry if I did something wrong, Mommy. I love you, Mommy! I love you with all of my heart. Why don't you love me? What did I do to deserve what they did to me? I want to live, Mommy! Please! It really, really hurts to see you not care about me, and not talk to me. Didn't I love you enough? Please say you'll keep me, Mommy! I want to live smile and watch the clouds and see your face and grow up and be a doctor. I don't want to be here, I want you to love me again! I'm really really really sorry if I did something wrong. I love you!

I love you, Mommy.

Every abortion is just…

One more heart that was stopped.

Two more eyes that will never see.

Two more hands that will never touch.

Two more legs that will never run.

One more mouth that will never speak.

2010-08-08T01:20:00.000-07:00

my first day of work spells BORING ~
practically is being chuck in a corner cos my "mentor" is on MC..
and i haven got my access card/ user id & blah blah blah...
seems that my manager is always not around..heard that he is an old ah pek aka uncle type la..

on my third day, he actually came over and ask me how m i and i was abit stunned.. becos i cant rmb who he was and when i finally realised who he is, he already went to talk to others... -.-
*bad impression*

well, my others "younger" colleagues doesnt seem very friendly cos they normally hang out among themselves.. and my mentor is an auntie so the aunties do talk to me.. =)
well, i cant judge much of them cos i'm still very new.
im glad that one of the officer actually say i did well but he say he will be giving me more work when i come back on tue.. -.-
is that a good thing?
oh well, better than nothing..

work seems to get better..
other things seems to be getting worse..
cant explained in such a way that ppl can understand... just hope everything goes well..

*************************************

saturday night out !!
went bedok 85 for dinner & durians...
had a super headache already by then..

watched "street dance" afterwards and it is awesome except for the last part which ended like "huh?"
well, the dance steps is really cool.. just the british-english speaking part is not what i normally hear..
it makes my understanding abit kinda blur..
overall is nice too.. * will have the urge to go clubbing ~

in the middle of the night, i got up and start having like diarrhea ! FML...
i was like totally drop dead in the toilet but my stomach is soo damn pain..
i guess it might be the durians i ate by the roadside near bedok 85 hawker centre..
well, it is the first time i ate durian by the roadside wad..
anw, i cant slp after that.. woke up around 9.30 am in time to watch doraemon .. =P

TO A::
in what way i talked like a housewife sia..
anw, i got the urge to sing again.. but then, i think my work mostly end at 7.30 or later -_-
so sad...

2010-08-03T08:03:00.000-07:00

2nd day of orientation, also mark the last day of orientation !!
have a fun but super tiring day !!!
what we have to do?
i got a group of 14 .. and uob got these like 4 cores values?

"UOB Group lies our four core values: Integrity, Teamwork, Trust and Respect, and Performance Excellence."

so wad we need to do is to go different branches, find out how is their services & how is it linked to the 4Cs ...
so yep, we went to raffles main branch after that to tiong bahru & then back to bugis ..
our class is located at SMU so we have our last stop at bugis..
well, there is some qns to be ans along the way.. i even msg nise
to help me find an ans at her branch.. *we didnt want to travel there becos there is a time limit of 4 hours..
need to have lunch and prepare the presentation as well within this time frame..
is super shag de lor...

anyway, we didnt get the first prize also.. the reward is starbucks voucher.. dunno how much..
sighs~ but everybody did hav another consolation prize of a $10 value ezlink card imprinted with our uob 4Cs !! that is abit unglam but is still money & it is also to cover our transportation fees as well.

so that is about all !
tml is going to start going to tamp le !! yay.. \(^_^)/

TO A ::
u shld be so grateful i came la.. after tt go home wash clothes is like damn tired lo. ~~~
anw.. nise is at the 6th floor leh. dunno can meet dao her anot.. hopefully bah ....

2010-08-02T05:45:00.000-07:00

first day of the orientation !!
it is super lame kind? like those poly schools get-together session..
firstly we got the colourful "name-tags" and the we grp according to the same colours and then introduce ourselves to the grp members.. after that u need to introduce to the whole class. *why cant they do it tgt??

well, i really hate these kind of stuffs..
the grp work & the super bored-to-tears presentation.. i nearly fell asleep then..
didnt meet alot of nice ppl, cos their position are so much higher than me..
some senior officers, AM, managers or even a VP !! wth..
im only a small clerk la..somemore is contract basis..
diaos.. so i dun want to mingle with them.. their topic is like so alien to me.??
dunno bout wad sibeh chim banking matters.. privillage or sumthing?? cant get thru.. so i chose to be alone..

worst of all, i wore my new heels & makes me like fck !!
totally feel like shit the whole day...
not enough? they still send me a super talkative aunty on my way back home, she keep talking n talking bout the rude HR and dunno who else..
even worst is that she is staying at tamp & same branch/lvl as me... sighs ~

hopefully tml will be a better day ~

=D

2010-07-30T22:14:00.000-07:00

offically over ~
im starting my new job in 2 days time..
excited? afraid? a little of everything..
i got a super mixed emotions of everything.. every little things i do affects me alot.
so, i rather stay at home n watch my shows..
no doubt that i have a great rest and all .. also get to hang out a little with some ppl..

finally get some time of my own..
this feelings is great but it is going to end soon once i start work again..

sighs~

anyway, at least i get to look forward to bkk trip in 2 weeks time !!
i just pray that there is no bomb when i m there.
-_-
if i meant to die, of cos i will die, but hopefully not in a bomb attack la..
i wish to die nicely & stay in shape leh..

welcome ! my new phrase of life ~

sucks

2010-07-25T19:31:00.000-07:00

This feeling sucks much.. I hope the day pass faster n let me leave this place quietly.. How could they??

My workload is divide into 3 now!!!
How angry can tt be..
Tis pass 2 years, i have all along doing everything, now tt i am leaving, u can divide my work into 3!!!
Wtf am i still even missing this place.
Karen Lim - may u rot in hell..
When we wanted to divide my work, u asked to divide equally but u dun wan to teach or dun wan to teach, now u can teach this new staff!! Great right.. Please die faster n i wont even feel sad bout it..
And the team leader tt accept everythin it is becos u dun want to offend Karen, pls continue to pray to ur god for commiting so much sins...
And the new staff- u are not new, only trf to my team, and i am sooo glad tt they take care of u so well!! Stop showing ur attitude to me.. Thks!!!!!!
And now, fuck off from my life...

2010-07-25T07:23:00.000-07:00

i have a super great night ytd & it is fabulous ~~

fireworkss - timbre - powerhouse - back hm

all my problems/worries are gone for the time being..
but everything came back when i woke up.. it's a diasater..
why cant he just leave us alone and stay where he is to their own personal world..
it doesnt make sense.. we're not even tt impt to him..

i just got the problems off my mind and everything come back in a shot.
feel weird.. feel terrible ..
i cant get the problems done..
i need some time alone to figure out..

gone

2010-07-23T00:17:00.000-07:00

I seriously think i am in super bad luck.. I gt weird colleagues taking over me.. N they are all with weird tempers.. And i totally couldnt get it.. I am now so glad i m leaving this place.. I would die if i stay longer.. *prays*

2010-07-22T06:56:00.000-07:00

* roarsss *

really damn hate them.. the attitude they given me..
i helped them out without any complaints & it's already my last week..
you guys still make me work like tt..

the one i called one of my team member , thanks for making my life totally feel like shit over there..
i really hate to admit it, but u are a total bitch..
u can act all u want now & be a goody person which make me look bad but i have always true friends by my side..
i seen your true colour & i know it is a little late, at least now i wont even miss you ... ...

go to hell ~
*hopefully*

TO A:: No prob on thurs !! =)

2010-07-16T08:47:00.000-07:00

this is soo damn irritating,,
why do u guys treat me like tt when i am leaving..
piling the work onto me as if i am a machine??
and in another way, booking me for "farewell lunch" ??
what is the matter with u ppl...!!!

AND u !! i dun even knw how you could even say this to otherss?? u will help when i'm gone?? that is super GREAT.. let's see how long u can help out with her..
freaking aunty.. i am so surprised that i can tahan u for the whole 2 years plus.. i knw others were quarreling with u back then, but i tot i could avoid tt.. anw, i am glad tt i'm leaving..
for the past 2 years, my things are finally dividing into 2 ... finally there's someone to share the workload.. and i have to wait till i tender my resignation letter so that i could get tt 2 weeks treatment of sharing my work..

pathetic, i think..
hate the feeling of being used..
argghhhh.!!

HEY A::: finally i am going to sing with u ??? when is that day ?????????????
coming soooonnnn ~~~

2010-07-11T09:48:00.000-07:00

it's sooo fluffy, i'm gonna die !!! *it's the trend now...
Click below to watch ...

IT"S SOO FLUFFY !!! <----

damn super duper cute !!!!!! oMG !!

&&&

A:: is then damn hard for me to plan with u.. u are always packed, almost i tink.. lols..

2010-07-08T03:39:00.000-07:00

it is confirmed ..
i have done it..
i have made it happen !!!
lols..
mad..

i am going to have a new job..
my last day at DHL will be on the 27th July 2010.
i am sad n happy at the same time.. i do admit i have some great colleagues but i am leaving them now.
happy that i am able to move on towards another company.

2010-07-05T04:35:00.001-07:00

i feel like singing !
MR A. !!! when is ur singing session coming before u start school huh ???

***********************************************************

taken unpaid leave again..
i am soo going to broke if i continue like that..
=(

happy gatecrashing today..

2010-07-04T07:27:00.000-07:00

i have taken my nap 2 times a day ??? been too tired ! YESsh..
working is a pain now.. i have tendered my resignation letter, boss have yet signed.. he's giving me 2 weeks to reconsider, to think again but my team leader is panicking who will b taking after my things..
she send a spy to learn from me, someone to report on my stuffs to her..
it's a like super uncomfortable.
when i am teaching her, it is fine. but the way she is using me is way too much.
when they tender, they immediately stop giving them invoices to do, but me? i am still doing my daily routine and teaching at the same time, even if i am on mc or unpaid leave, the job eventually still leave it on my table.!
why ??

anw, i have a job offer.
if everything is well, i will be signing the contract the coming week.. =)
i dun have the courage to tell my boss this too..
he counter-offer me and mayb i can change my grp too.. but with the working enviroment, i dunno how much long i can last.. and to think bout it, i will be stuck like for years and i know i dun want that..
i dunno how to open my mouth to reject cos he is like quite good to me.. like kinda daddy .. *(i am not talking about my AM btw.. totally different person. he dun even talk to me now after i tender.. -_-)

******************************************

tml will be the big day for JO.. yep.. she's getting married ! i am gonna wake up ard 4 plus in the morning to get prepared. cos i will need to go eunos for that.. preparation shld get started !!!
totally happy for her and i also pray that her husband-to-be will stay faithful to her.

2010-06-30T05:29:00.000-07:00

i finally tender liao !! if everything goes well, my last day will be on the 27th July 2010..
well.. i feel sad to leave my colleagues, those who really treat me well.. talk alot and joke alot.. but some things just arent meant to be...

TL said sad to see me leave but behind was finding ppl to take over my job quickly & she doesnt even want to learn herself those complicated ones !! cant understand.. plus boss haven even comfirm my resignation yet!
speechless ~

anw, went check up today.. it's so pain when they draw my blood.. but i still bear with it.. i'm alone and i need to be strong... everything is fine..
hopefully will be able to discuss bout the job soon ..

2010-06-25T02:22:00.000-07:00

Wedding Gatecrash?
what does it mean? to humiliate your own husband for fun or just to let him know that marrying you is not easy? will it make him cherish u more when the gatecrash is more difficult?
or will he leave you if the gatecrashing is easy?
this is just part of the tradition isnt it?

with or without gatecrash, does it make a different to your marriage?
do ppl judge it that way...?
i dun want gatecrush because i dun want to humiliate my own husband , is it wrong to think that way?
what does it mean that i'm so scare that he will leave me just becos i dun want gate crash.
actually gatecrashing is fine, but do the sisters know how not to overdo it??

there're so much to think about. that's what make wedding so troublesome..
yes, it is fun.. but i still feel respecting others is still a MUST to consider.

hmm. not talking bout my experience of cos..
all the ones i'm involved love their husband so much that they wouldnt bear to humiliate them. =)

2010-06-25T01:02:00.000-07:00

her ROM dinner on the 16th Jun 2010

too busy so i'm updating in the office.. shhh~
well. have a super busy week becos of my sis wedding. but i have to be busy again for another wedding..!!
It's not like i am not happy for her but i'm really exhasted and i am always restless ...

well, it went well that day.. everybody is happy for her and she gets to enjoy in her lovely suite @ M Hotel as well as Meritus Mandarin.. *she book two !!!!
enjoying life... ! and she even bought me a top when she came back home the other day.. birdnest for my mum. it get a little weird that she is not around on weekdays as well.. so i getting to adapt it althou the clothes are not moved yet till her new house come.

super love these ..

her wedding dinner day @ M Hotel.

erm, for the MC part.. well, i cant deny that i'm super nervous but i think all goes well except for the part that i didnt ask the guest to stand up for the "YUM SENG" part..

my partner forget so i didnt mentioned it as well.

so sorry !

my partner was another nervous one too but he kinda have the courage to lead the yum seng on..

GOOD JOB!!

*********************************

after the wedding??

interviews of cos..

went for a few including govt & UOB *thanks to nise*

govt : pay is lesser cos they dun regconise my diploma, higher benefits,bonus etc, no OTs.. but far from my house, no camera phone.. able to study part time if i want cos of the working hrs.

UOB: pay should be higher, OTs is compulsary but super near my house. i cant study cos their working hrs is 10am - 7.30am. excluding the OTs thou. but they are actually in need of ppl urgently so i dunno they can wait for me to serve my 1 month notice..

well, if everything goes well, i will be able to get a new job soon.. =)

2010-06-15T08:05:00.000-07:00

im back from BATAM..

had a super relaxing trip despite it's raining and i didnt went for shopping..

after the stressful week, all the anger, stress, fear were left behind there..

i came back with a peaceful mind with lotsa loves... althou the work is still piling up, at least i knw that ppl will help me out whenever they can except for my team members of cos.. (-_-)zZ

here's some pics..

i'm back to work __ super sians de lo ..

having another interview this thus.. i'm gonna reject one job offer for me cos the work/company/benefits really sux up to the max.. dun really match up with the pay they are offering.. hmm..

2010-06-12T05:14:00.000-07:00

i pass my TP .... i'm so so so glad that i made it.. i think the tester just pass me la..
i gt 18 pts, which include 10pts when i strike the kerb & 4pts x 2 for not checking safety.. that all..
and i keep hearing he is actually asking me to turn left when he wants me to turn right..
2 times already.. and i keep apologising to him and said i cant hear properly.. if not i think i will fail.. =(

but this huge thing came off my mind today.. i feel so relax..
i went to the temple to pray and i will go back and thanks them again..

the night before, i had a nightmare about missing the whole TP thing cos of a test of something.. and is like 4pm and i still didnt take my TP yet.. mum say i was too stress..
and I AM TOO STRESS.. i strike/mount the kerb 2 times when i was doing a warm-up.. instructor was like asking me to relax.. i just cant, and nearly broke down..
i cant imagine i have pass this already.

A BIG THANK YOU for those who wished me and pray for me.. THANK YOU !!!!!!

life like tat

2010-06-08T16:17:00.000-07:00

Im trying so god damn hard not to b sad n bothered bout it.. But sadly, i cant..

2010-06-08T09:30:00.001-07:00

TAKE MY PAIN AWAY !! BE GONE ...

2010-06-08T09:29:00.000-07:00

why am i blogging at this hour.. becos my life really sux..
i'm seriously hopeless or sumthing i think.. i muz have owe her in previous life.. that must be it.
if not why things always fall upon me.. took every of my hope away..

i tot i can try to be friendly, more patience and not to step ur tail.. but all this efforts are wasted.
i dun understand and never will.. totally speechless. yes, it's still best for me to be alone..
go ahead and take all of my friends. go ahead and say anything about me.
i will try my best not to care and not to be bothered.. ( i hope so )..

2010-06-06T11:02:00.000-07:00

i have a busy life.... !!

sure do.. i'm working on sunday too !! * data entry was a hard job indeed.. i cant stand sitting in front of the com and type all the way for 3 hrs.. my eyes were so damn tired ..

i have an interview tml .. *prays*

if this succeed, i will not be waiting till end of this month =)

a little update ... ...

uh.. wz finally going to the army.. good for him ! train harder and know the hard work .!!

have a dinner gathering before he go off.

CRabby ..

Wei Zhao turns BOTAK !!

after this will be keong's bday.. have decided to go to goodwoodpark hotel to try their dessert buffet.

yes, we will be having desserts for dinner..

hope nothing changes.. settle for that first..

i want to eat their durian puffs.. is AWESOME !!! i ate once when they came TM to set up a booth..

super delicious.. althou few pimples came out after that.. YUMSSss...

their durian eclair.. is $5.50 per piece... !!!! but the durian is ard 2 inch thick... !

2010-05-30T05:04:00.000-07:00

&&&
i got an Iphone .. well, it's the hottest thing in town isnt it ??
hahas.. anw, this is a super advance bday present from bf.. and i suddenly just got it one fine day..

i haven been updating cos i have been busying playing with the games..

i love those finding stuffs games, puzzle ones and super cute ones..
bf is engaged to the "Angry Bird" game..but he always pronouned it as angry bee!! -.-

*****************************************************

June
this year is a busy one for me.
i have my Tp, sis wedding n stuffs.. hardly have any time for myself to catch up with others..

speaking of that..
i totally think through my post just now.

i just need myself to b happy instead of caring how others feel about me.
as long as i'm happy.. yep.. =D
friends come and go..
time will see how far friendship can go.
of cos i wish i always have them.

aiya.. i also dunno what i want..
...
...
....
.....
.......
..........
.............
...............
.................

2010-05-29T22:33:00.000-07:00

i haven been updating for soooo long..
sometimes i'm just plain tired .. i'm getting restless at my job.. but it's coming.. the end of jun when i will be gone for all these things.. i dunno what to feel, so confused, so happy & sad at the same time ...
i dunno how my next job will be or if i ever find a job ..
getting to meet new ppl and everything will be new to me.. i'm scared at the same time.
but someone says if i dun get out of the "comfort zone" i'm having, there's no way to know what's happening outside. so, i decided tt i need to get out no matter what..

so now, the friends part come in..
at times, i dunno whether i'm hanging out w the right ones.
the one who treat me like an enemy & a "sister" .. the way she can treat others but nv me.
the way she is demanding or thinking tt i might snatch something or someone away from her...
they way she wants to win me from anything or everything.
does it matter so much in a friendship..
i totally have no idea..
i really wondered why i'm still there.

... ...

tt becos we're still friends? no, i treat her like a friend. but i still need the respect from her.
no, she will always be a "friend" only. no more others.

..
my real friends wont do that. they will be happy for me not jealous over me.
they will want everything best of me, not take the best out of me.
true friends do that right?

i think i'm still happy alone.

2010-05-16T08:58:00.000-07:00

well, "C" is finally taking off.
just sent her off and feel so heart-pain when her mom cried. most of them cried and i cant control myself too. T_T
i wish her all the best and have a safe journey & may she meet nice friends over there to take care of her.
uh, saw the girl that is going to travel w her * erm, hope she dun bully "C" lor..
like those kind off heck care thinking, she dun feel sad leaving and was hurrying "C" to go inside when it's still early la..
*prays* that time pass faster so she can come back in a blink of an eye !!

"A" 's grandfather pass away too.
i'm quite sad even thou i just see him a few times but they're all quite nice to me.
to "A" :: jia you ! jie ai shun bian ...

*************************************************

why is all the sad things happening this month..
i cant help but feel so emotional too.
ahh. long story...
shall continue again......

2010-05-13T07:36:00.000-07:00

there's a new girl coming to join our billing team. i saw her at the boss room with my AM..

so i went over to my AM after that,

ME: hey, i heard there's a new girl joining us?

AM: Ya, why..

ME: is she replacing me?? shall i handover my things to her?

AM: Go away, i dun want to talk to you...

ME: why, i need someone to cover me what !!!
AM: i'm not talking to you !!

well, he doesnt want to hear about me leaving. even if i'm giving him MC, he will get so panic over what i'm giving him....

Currently watching ::

KOREAN DRAMA : PERSONAL TASTE by LEE MIN HO !!!

isnt he handsome !

he's so cute acting all gay kind of stuffs..

2010-05-10T07:19:00.000-07:00

my new craving :: tornado potato !!!

i just tried it in Cheese flavor !!

damn nice de la.. abit saltly when the cheese is concentrated in one area but the potato are real fresh and yummy.. and while i'm typing this, i'm craving for it now..

there are 4 flavors: cheese,onion,bbq & kimchi... i will still go for the cheese.. it's my fav !

and i only can try one cos i'm still sick, but once i recover, i will buy two at 1 go. !! cant wait...

*hopefully the pasar malam haven close yet.. if not, i dunno where i can get it already . *prays*

*************************************

2010-05-07T09:05:00.000-07:00

how i know whether all this while it's like this..
the different faces of ppl carrying different masks in front of you is tiring enough.
i might be late to know all this as i am the silly, foolish girl around you guys..
i always tot that friends are suppose to be true to you no matter what happen...
but the way ppl are doing nowadays, i really couldnt catch up and i dun understand...

i dun trust the f.r.i.e.n.d.s.h.i.p thingy anymore.. it feel so weak compare to the money,fame,lust and everything else. when some factor came into the friendship, it cant hold long.
that's how weak friendship are to modern ppl.
yes, friends can be found anywhere, anytime.. but who are those who are being true?

i had the fabulous dinner/ktv session with long-time-no-see friends. for those who are true and straightforward now, it's limited. but still i meet these two whom are true and comes straight to the point. i mean, there's no hiding of the true self, no pretending and i like it.

this pic is w flash de lor.. and it's so much clearly than those without..

p.s. i'm still uploading to my com. i'll upload to my FB once i'm free ! =)

someone told me "life is just like a drama, there's so much to act and so much to remember. you dun have to talk about how bad others is and just live true to yourself."
yes, people minds are so scary that there're times which i just want to be alone and isolate from the world to be myself. i ask him whether i can trust him , he reply "for so long, i hope u can see what and how i treated u" =)

********************************************
oh, i need to show u guys what bf bought for me for our anniversary next month ! actually, it's a bag for my sis's wedding too.. and my sis bought me my dress too .. i love them all !!!

at first, i'm buying the black one and the sales girl told us that there's two new colours for this design.

that's this rose & white colour.. omg, i fell love at first sight when i see this colour. it's pink =D

and my dress is pink too !

it can totally cover my tummy.. except for the fat arm.. i'm still thinking for a solution.

2010-05-02T07:54:00.000-07:00

movies weekendsss..
watch Iron Man 2 with sotong n her bf on friday night.. fighting part was awesome plus i nv watch Iron Man 1 so these look super new to me.. i dunno bout the story and all but it was tot to be one of the blockbuster for this week.. so i just watch it..

they are the same person.. she's so damn hot la. the perfect hour-glass figure.. =P

i have no idea the breasts is soo large but anw... it's nice lor.. =))

catch IpMan2 with khakis on saturday night ..

reach home is ard 4plus am liao la.. was lucky that we met desmond outside ehub and he is willing to sent me home.. cos the others is going for supper..

i prefer Ipman than Iron man.. both are nice but i like donnie yen now.. he's like soooooo charming ..

look at his body can liao. hahaha.. anw, he was real cute & "ah dai" kind of teacher.. super cute de la.

****************************************

oh well, to "A"

u are really slow when updating on urself.. =X

go learn how to use twitter la.. ask "C" to teach u..

on my bro, i think it super far for him lehs. CCK leh!! =(

hopefully he can get fatter becos of the life there.. hehes..

the malaysian menlo guy is super long liao la.. i this got 2 yrs ago le. now of cos dun have liao.

no cute or good-looking guy that can catch my eyes now also.. all i see is those uncles liaos..

I know, it's friday! & yep i did talk to her.. u both tell me a day then i can meet u all for lunch lo.

actually, i seldom eat at the canteen, mostly tabao also... cos i feel that the chairs n tables is very dirty..

but for both of u, i try to sit there lo =X

my lunch very early de leh.. ard 12 - 2 pm , anytime ard there.

2010-04-29T08:01:00.000-07:00

this post is all about HAPPY !!!

finally the long-awaited weekend is here. oh, i took leave tml !
going to a massage session with my girlss ! i hope it'll be fun... mayb a little of shopping & Iron Man 2 after that with sotong =))
didnt manage to catch it with my khakis cos i already ask sotong n her bf le....
but nvm, still got IP Man 2!!
well, sat lunch will be a wonderful steamyboat with the home-made chilli.. yipee.!

Lastly !!!

me love shopping , love eating and love sleeping ..

i want everything to go smoothly.

and

i want everything to to nice.

it doesnt have to be perfect, just good enough to make ppl smile. =D

2010-04-27T08:50:00.000-07:00

Do you know the difference between education and experience? Education is when you read the fine print; experience is what you get when you don't.

Pete Seeger

2010-04-27T08:46:00.000-07:00

have u met someone who really deserve ur sacrifice and he/she appreciates what you have done for him/her.
i have few frens who comes from difficult families, they grow up different which tends to turn out more problematic. do they seek more attention? yes, they do. they need someone to be there and care for them and give them the attention they need.
but does them deserve to be ill-treated? no, they are human too, they have mom like us.

i dunno much there but i despise those who uses violent to solve matter. it doesnt help except to worsen everything.
i dun and cant comment much. i'm just feeling sorry for these girls i known that were exposed to these violent "BFs" - they arent fit to be ur bf either.
*cooling myself down*

************************************************
my bro is going to be @ HOME TEAM ACADEMY on the 3rd AUG 2010 .. "A", please ask whoever to take good care of him k.. =))

TO "A" ::
i will not replace u de lor.. dream on.. that place is not suitable for me.. i dun like being under "lady".. =)
i once saw this menlo guy that is quite charming.. but i think he return to malaysia liao.. quite long le.. hehehes
ohh. u n "E" go lunch together?? no lehs, i nv saw u guys too what.. most of the time i bring my own lunch or buy back to office to eat.. what time is ur lunch break?? i got tell "E" tt i will meet her one day.. hahas..
got talk bad about me anot.. ! =0
buy lunch ? breakfast can anot.. me n that prata man is fren liao.. and the second stall malay uncle also, everytime give free food. i can share w u if u want..
got twitter? now "IN" thing.. lols.. more easy update.!

TO "C" :: JIA YOU !!!!!!!!!! everytime twitter with u also dun need to write here liao..
but still , all the best..
keong haven decide where to eat & that xinglong half way reply half way stop.. dunno he take leave liao anot.. see you soon .!

2010-04-25T19:59:00.000-07:00

Finally went shopping @ orchard.. it had been like 3 months of not shopping in town..
didnt buy anything except for my fav choco !!

this is the best best choco ever.. any choco-lovers would want them.. plus it's not exp either..

it's only $15 per box.. && it is sooo damn nice..

i bought the seasonal flavour which is limited, Grand Marnier ! it had a hint of liquer but it does not overpower the choco itself. just nice. .

please put my GODIVA aside cos i nv can afford it unless ppl buy it for me.. hehehes ..

i was searching for handbags for my sis wedding as well as COACH which i wanted "C" to help me buy (*many Thanks) cos my sis say COACH is 40% cheaper in US than in SG..

hmm.. still thinking..

anw, i got 2 choices for my sis's wedding handbag & i'm cracking my head to decide which one i wanted.

one is black which matches my wristlet well and another one with a touch of purple (my fav colour now) and their signature brown colour..

Similar colour but the size is as the black one above..

i love the purple but i guess it's not as easy to match as the black one.. =(

To "A" ::: Well, at least they shown appreciation of what u did not like mine.. almost 3 yrs already !!
i ask QA already, they say they are not hiring yet.. i only hope now is to get out of here #$*&#($&
i dun want replace you lar.. u got a lady supervisor.. women tends to hold grudge one, if u made a mistake, they will rmb you forever !! lolss..

regarding "E", no comments... i feel she expect too much la.. dun tell me she nv take mc before lor.. if we sick still come to work, it is considered irresponsible cos u might pass the virus to others.. >_<

uh, muz thanks u for "da ren you da liang" ??

2010-04-22T08:03:00.000-07:00

ok, well.. i have decided to tender my resignation this JUNE (same as u "A"!!) :)
but anyway, i have plans whether or not i'm getting any new job.. mayb i can just be jobless or what, i dun mind.. i just want to get out of here.. and the reason being June is becos i can still take my leave for my sis's wedding & TP all that.. so i will serve July as my 1 month notice period so i be out of here by Aug..
I'll be leaving for a short getaway to BKK during Aug and i will continue to find a job.. *yEAH*

i hope none of my colleagues is reading this ..
i need to keep a low profile now in the office.. i'm so afraid they might do anything to my grp.. i just need to get away quietly..
oH. one more thing, my SE have been promoted to AM.. well, i didnt know he does a "Good" job but congrats to him..
this company is sick !
i hope i can stand firm on this decision !!!

TO "C" :: thanks for ur good luck, i hope i can pass one time !! i dun want waste money when i'm going jobless.. hahas.. i was nv good at anything =l
see you soon ...

TO "A" :: Congrats in the dunno what award thingy.. i been with dhl so long also nv win anything sia.. hahas..
It good to have someone same sch to work w u mah.. like QA, althou he gone liao...
As my case, as above.. lols.
ur mum is cool lar.. can go work office.. i hope i can find another office job tt doesnt bully me.. haiz..
Ohh.. n talking bout ktv.. u tt time msg me going ktv w ws, i was in KL so i cant reply u ..

*******************************************

why was ppl getting so hard to understand ??
i hope & try to stay out of this..

that all ...

2010-04-20T06:05:00.000-07:00

Life is sOO beautiful ... i wish i can have a simple & beautiful life ... ...

the problem is still there if u chose to ignore it...

2010-04-19T23:42:00.000-07:00

well, i tot everything is going so smoothly and i sleep really well ytd but it's not .... ....
this morning when i came to work, my TL find me to have a talk.. it's bout me leaving.. *(i tot my SE ask me to keep a low profile but he actually tell her that!!)
anw, she ask me whether izzit becos of her and everything and i said no of course.. it's becos of the pay too low and i'm sick of billing & billing ... so next she ask me whether izzit bout my grp member* tt aunty** , i said that is part of it but not all ... she can be difficult to get along but tt not the only reason i wanted to leave..
so, she say she is so sad, asking me to stay mayb till end of this year or so & ask e to consider properly..
alright then.. after the conversation, i went to find my SE again... i ask him why he tell her and why she keep asking me to stay.. AND the big prob here is... now, he dun wan me to leave again ! wtf.. he wanted to change my team and see how it goes.. of cos i rejected, there's no point in changing of the team, i just dun want to stay here anymore..
we have a talk ytd and he is supportive of me leaving. i dunno why he change his mind so quickly..
now i'm confused again..

... ...
... ...
... ...

2010-04-19T07:53:00.000-07:00

i feel so relax after talking with my SE.. he is glad that i actually inform him before i tender my resignation letter. it gave him some time to prepare and re-organise stuffs.
yipee!!
now gonna plan for my future & mayb some part time work ??
intro plsss !!

2010-04-18T23:16:00.000-07:00

cant get into the decision. =(
if i tender my resignation letter now, there'll be shortage of manpower ...
why should i consider so much ?? i dunno, i am still so soft-hearted !!
i should have a talk with my SE later.. but i'm afraid that i will cry again... argghh..

well, let's see how it goes later..

TO "A" :: i think i might need a little break before starting any job.. and i dun think i'll be able to get out ofthe logistic line since i only have this kind of exp... mayb gonna study part time next year, but for the time being, i need to stick to logistic line =[
hahas, u can ask ur mom to join u in the company u are working.. that'll be fun.
ur bro is at the age where u need extra care de lor. if not very easy turn bad de..
OHh, btw... the girl whose you staring at when she came for interview, is my friend.. i think u forget who she is already?? take good care of her k..

2010-04-17T21:14:00.000-07:00

talk about my freaking job..
i was totally not in the mood when it comes to my pay..
everybody say that our salary is confidential and you are not supposed to let others know how much u're getting.. i can understand that.. but once this girl tell me how much is her pay, i was mentally unstable..
she just joined for less than a year, and her pay is $400 + higher than me.. pardon me, but it's not like i dun have to exp & qualification now.. she's previously was a housewife !
and she just tendered her resignation letter too, she got another job as billing assistant but the company offer her $500+ more than what she's getting now..

i AM TOTALLY UNDERPAID !! damn..
i tot of resigning regardless of whether i'm able to get another job anot cos i cant stand the way they are using ME..
but. .... ....
there's lot to consider esp when my TP is getting near, i need money to book for my lessons & everything..
anw, my TP is on the 12th JUNE 2010.. wish me luck *( i got 0 confidence in passing btw).. ..
plus i'm leaving BKK again on AUG, where do i get my expenses if i have no job.

my mind is soo confused right now .. whether to leave or not to leave...

TO "C" :: thanks! but i haven get that job yet leh.. =P
TO "A" :: uh, i dunno whether i can be based as customer service when u know that i cant handle those customers sia.. i cant take them scolding me. hahas.. but i'm trying to get those in operation line @ logistics one if i can.. i still cant trust the agent.. it's that stupid agent ask me to lower my price soo low and now there's no way to increase it !! they only want to get me into the job and do whatever they can.
anw, what happen to ur bro sia.. why become like that.. ={

2010-04-14T07:41:00.000-07:00

duh *
went for an interview today (like finally i'm making a move) !!
anw, it was kept very secret and it not like i can post in on FB, in case some of my colleagues see.
so i'm saying it here !!

hmm, it goes pretty well but i'm not sure bout whether i'm able to get this job anot.
there's a scene whereby the person say that the procedures will be quite similar to what i'm working as now and my face look abit "sian" .. they even ask me whether i'm ok with it.. and i gave them a super unconvincing answer..
ok, i'm applying for another "billing assistant" but i'm not sure if i can continue this stuffs.. is like quite bored to me already.. anw, i just gave it a try since i'm looking for a new job too..

now that belle is totally gone from the office (*she quit) .. i guess i'm quite lonely too.. not that i'm sad that she leave, actually quite glad that she's gone becos this place totally sux..
ah.. we are gonna have a massage session on the 30th APR & of cos the BOTAK JONES dinner.. it's great !! esp the CHEESSEE fries.. *( diet after that ) ... ...

- my bro is treating me n my mum dinner cos he got his pay !! yeahh!! i have been waiting for this day man..
- baby zann's birthday @ woodlands. !!!!!

super tired ~